by princess purr » Wed Aug 03, 2011 06:16 am
The only thing that it keeping me hopefully about a different partner is with my first partner I would get urinary tract infections allllll the time, and knock on wood, I have not had one since him and I separated. Also, when I was with him my skin was horrible, pimples all the time, and after about 6 months of being separated it got a lot better. It makes me think my body just did not like him... but who knows. I just know I am beyond scared, my first experience was so horrible and knowing it could happen again...even earlier really really scares me. I never thought I could get through it once, going through it twice.... I just don't want to even think about it. I'm going to be on pins and needles the whole time... 4-12 weeks I will be scared to death because of risk of miscarriage... 12-20 I'll be thinking about 20+, if I make it to 24 I think 24-28 will be the hardest. I almost feel like I have to do this, because if I don't I will never know... but part of me feels like maybe not knowing is not better.... Why does adoption have to be so expensive

The only thing that it keeping me hopefully about a different partner is with my first partner I would get urinary tract infections allllll the time, and knock on wood, I have not had one since him and I separated. Also, when I was with him my skin was horrible, pimples all the time, and after about 6 months of being separated it got a lot better. It makes me think my body just did not like him... but who knows. I just know I am beyond scared, my first experience was so horrible and knowing it could happen again...even earlier really really scares me. I never thought I could get through it once, going through it twice.... I just don't want to even think about it. I'm going to be on pins and needles the whole time... 4-12 weeks I will be scared to death because of risk of miscarriage... 12-20 I'll be thinking about 20+, if I make it to 24 I think 24-28 will be the hardest. I almost feel like I have to do this, because if I don't I will never know... but part of me feels like maybe not knowing is not better.... Why does adoption have to be so expensive :-(