by uncskristy » Tue Sep 27, 2011 11:37 am
This morning, our preschool teacher tells me that Davis dreams about Cooper. He has told her the dreams are where he and Cooper are playing together in his room and Mommy comes in mad because the room is a mess. Unfortunately we never introduced Cooper to Davis because we were unsure of how quickly he was going to pass away and did not want Davis in the room when it happened. He knows of his little brother from pictures and what we tell him. Until recently, I was just thought that he repeated things about Cooper because he knew that it made my husband and I happy and did not really understand because he is still young. A few weeks ago he started randomly crying and told us that he misses Cooper and wants his little brother back so between that and now the dreaming, I know that he has become old enough to realize what he is missing with Cooper not being here. Its crazy how many emotions you can experience at one time. I am sad because I want Cooper back so bad I can not stand it, proud because Davis is so sweet for thinking of his little brother and.... annoyed because what the heck else is Davis telling his teacher since he has told her that I get mad because his room is messy. (Can you tell I try to deal with my grief by laughing?)
This morning, our preschool teacher tells me that Davis dreams about Cooper. He has told her the dreams are where he and Cooper are playing together in his room and Mommy comes in mad because the room is a mess. Unfortunately we never introduced Cooper to Davis because we were unsure of how quickly he was going to pass away and did not want Davis in the room when it happened. He knows of his little brother from pictures and what we tell him. Until recently, I was just thought that he repeated things about Cooper because he knew that it made my husband and I happy and did not really understand because he is still young. A few weeks ago he started randomly crying and told us that he misses Cooper and wants his little brother back so between that and now the dreaming, I know that he has become old enough to realize what he is missing with Cooper not being here. Its crazy how many emotions you can experience at one time. I am sad because I want Cooper back so bad I can not stand it, proud because Davis is so sweet for thinking of his little brother and.... annoyed because what the heck else is Davis telling his teacher since he has told her that I get mad because his room is messy. (Can you tell I try to deal with my grief by laughing?)