I understand too, I complained my whole pregnancy of all the aches and pains, I would gladly take them back on if it meant Soleil Sophia would be back in my tummy for two more months and had survived. I was in such pain with the edema, headaches, hemmroids, clothes not fitting, eyes watering all the time, asthma flares, mood changes, tiredness, over eating, sinus infections, the list could probably go on, but I would take all those symptoms back. The anger is getting worse in me too.

I feel the same,I so wish my son was here happy and healthy. I understand

I'm very sorry for the loss of your Cooper, and I understand the anger. I would also give anything, do anything, to have my Molly back. And I mean *anything*. I've never felt that way before, ever, for any reason. Now I feel like I would sell my soul to have my child back. The love and longing I have for her is intense. I don't have any other children, so this feeling is new to me. I guess this is what it feels like to be a mama. :'(

Lately I have been feeling angry a lot. I hate preeclampsia and the fact that it took Cooper from me. I can not stop imagining what it would be like if I was stressed out because I had a one year old running around while my four year old was asking his fifty million questions and my eight week old crying. What I would not give.