by holly3372@msn.com » Sun Aug 19, 2012 10:38 am
Hi. Friday was the anniversary of our son Benjamin's death. It is 2 years now, 2 years one by. It feels like forever ago, yet like only yesterday all at the same time. It is ironic that friday was also my doctors appointment, I am 16 weeks pregnant. At first I thought to change the date but my husband and I thought that maybe it's meant to be maybe we will get some good news. We did, my bp was good, baby looked great , all measurements so far so good and we found out we are having a girl. I know I should be happy and I mean I am I am so grateful for any good news bevause we didn't get much in my last pregnancy. I know it's normal to feel the way I do. I am just filled with so many emotions. I am grief stricken all over again this week remembering everything and missing my son terribly. I try to stay calm and positive anything to keep this new baby going and growing but oh how I hurt. I didn't realize how it would feel being pregnant again after losing your baby. It truly is so very bittersweet.
Hi. Friday was the anniversary of our son Benjamin's death. It is 2 years now, 2 years one by. It feels like forever ago, yet like only yesterday all at the same time. It is ironic that friday was also my doctors appointment, I am 16 weeks pregnant. At first I thought to change the date but my husband and I thought that maybe it's meant to be maybe we will get some good news. We did, my bp was good, baby looked great , all measurements so far so good and we found out we are having a girl. I know I should be happy and I mean I am I am so grateful for any good news bevause we didn't get much in my last pregnancy. I know it's normal to feel the way I do. I am just filled with so many emotions. I am grief stricken all over again this week remembering everything and missing my son terribly. I try to stay calm and positive anything to keep this new baby going and growing but oh how I hurt. I didn't realize how it would feel being pregnant again after losing your baby. It truly is so very bittersweet.