A sad day that will live in my heart forever

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Re : A sad day that will live in my heart forever

Post by julie f » Thu May 06, 2004 11:30 am

Jennie,

Lots of hugs and prayers coming your way.

Julie (27)
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26wks - severe pe

Praying for a miracle... TTC #2 is a go!

Southern California Coordinator

Re : A sad day that will live in my heart forever

Post by jenn » Thu May 06, 2004 12:40 am

Craig,
Thank you so much! But I admire you in return. Your courage to find answers so soon after your loss is worth admiration. My husband is no where near where you are with this tackling this.
I'm happy you found this website to help you and your wife start to understand and grieve. This website alone has really helped me to find the courage we talk about.

May your family be in my thoughts and prayers!!!




Jennie (24)
Shad DH (28)

Jaidyn 1.24.01 (30 wkr)
Severe PE/HELLP
2lb. 12oz.

Heavenly Angel:
Blaze
12.6.03
(miscarriage)

EDD- Thanksgiving! 11.25.04

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/j/jaid/

Re : A sad day that will live in my heart forever

Post by jenn » Thu May 06, 2004 12:35 am

Melissa, Thanks! I know he is too!

Jennie (24)
Shad DH (28)

Jaidyn 1.24.01 (30 wkr)
Severe PE/HELLP
2lb. 12oz.

Heavenly Angel:
Blaze
12.6.03
(miscarriage)

EDD- Thanksgiving! 11.25.04

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/j/jaid/

Re : A sad day that will live in my heart forever

Post by craigh » Thu May 06, 2004 10:44 am

You and your family are in my thoughts a prayers Jennie. I can imagine today is very difficult for you, Shane's due date is July 15th I am not sure how I will deal with that day. I admire your courage. Happy due date Blaze!

-------------------
Mom and I love and miss you very much.. Shane Andrew, April 25, 2004

Re : A sad day that will live in my heart forever

Post by meljoi » Thu May 06, 2004 07:20 am

Jennie.....
I am so so sorry for you.
Your little angel is looking down on you today and always.
I'm thinking about you.

Melissa Joi 32
DH Jeremy 43
mama to Peyton John 12/04/00 (severe pre-e @ 38wks)
2nd babe due 11/26/04

Re : A sad day that will live in my heart forever

Post by angelkat » Thu May 06, 2004 06:14 am

Jennie...

Sending you extra hugs today!... Happy due date Blaze, may you comfort your mommy today and always....

Hugs
~T
Moderator Grief and Loss
Mommy to
Drew(13)
Ky (11)
~i~ Katlyne(12/9/02-04/02/03) & Casey (EDD 09/10 or 09/11-Sure he will be here in Aug)
Katlyne's Tribute Site
http://forevernetwork.com/lifestories/lifestory.cfm?Archive_ID=10971&Directory=/Archives/MountHope&Sort=V

Re : A sad day that will live in my heart forever

Post by jenn » Thu May 06, 2004 06:11 am

*deep breath*
I knew this day was comming. But somehow it still snuck up on me.
Today was my due day for Blaze.
I wasn't going to make a big deal out of it, or dwell. It's just the final chapter book I suppose.
I miss him like crazy and talk to him daily. We still have his ashes in our room. I'm not ready to give him up. I think he's at peace still being a part of our family and watching us from the shelf. I pass by and give him a kiss when I feel the urge.
I hope he plans to be a big brother guardian angel, we could sure use an ace on our side.

Well, I love you Blaze. All day everyday, with all my heart. You taught me so much in our short time together. I promise to extend that to others.

Have Happy Due-Day!
Love, mommy, daddy, jaidyn, and baby
XOXO

Jennie (24)
Shad DH (28)

Jaidyn 1.24.01 (30 wkr)
Severe PE/HELLP
2lb. 12oz.

Heavenly Angel:
Blaze
12.6.03
(miscarriage)

EDD- Thanksgiving! 11.25.04

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/j/jaid/

Re : A sad day that will live in my heart forever

Post by nunyobizniz5 » Mon Feb 09, 2004 04:07 am

Dear Jenni;

I am so sorry about your loss. I just read your letter and I was touched. I will be in prayer for you and I don't think there are any comforting words to say to someone who has loss a child. But of prayer.

God Bless You,
C

Re : A sad day that will live in my heart forever

Post by paljane8 » Tue Jan 27, 2004 04:51 am

It is so good to hear from you, Jennie. What a special way to say good bye...well not good bye but, see you some day. Take care of yourself.

Nancy-35
dh-34
ds-8yrs
dd-7yrs
Scott-born 05-14-99 @38 weeks-PE
Janie-born 05-12-03 @37 weeks-PIH, small for gestational age (oligo and low blood flow)
http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/4/4lbs/

Re : A sad day that will live in my heart forever

Post by jenn » Tue Jan 27, 2004 03:13 am

Update

Hi everyone. I wanted to give an update due to the outpore of concern. (thank you for caring sooo much!) I was scheduled for a d&c that never took place due to dr. error. Little did I realize how happy I am that never happened. The following week I lost my pregnancy in the comfort of my own home with my family at my side. Baby Blaze past Dec. 6th 2003.
That same evening, by chance, was gathering at local cemetery for parents whom lost children. My husband and I attended. It helped to know the pain I felt was real and others have felt this too. I'm not one to cry, but let me tell you... there wasn't a dry eye there. We got to say goodbye - that was so important. Blaze was our child even though we never met.
I learned so much from this chapter of my life. From expecting the unexpected, to finding complete strangers cared for us, so many things like this. I see the world through different eyes since.
Blaze will forever live in our hearts. He (yes, i swear our baby was a he, forgive me Blaze if I am wrong) is at peace in an urn box in our home. His urn box has a diamond cross and his name upon it. My husband and I were able to get exact matching diamond necklaces. We were them always to carry our son with us. He did exsist, and forever will in our hearts! I (we) love you Blaze!
A chapter has come to an end. But a new begining has started. The one thought that helps me to begin this new chapter is knowing I will be with Blaze someday... so in a way his passing is not permanent. And I know he's here with us every step of the way till the day we meet.

Thank you to everyone for your support, love, kindness, caring, friendship, etc. It has helped me to get through this. I have learned from you, and promise to carry on what you have taught me.

All my love!

Jennie
Mommy to:
Jaidyn Riley 1.24.01 PE/HELLP (10 wk, 2lb. 12oz.)
Angel Blaze 12.6.03 (miscarriage)

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