Hi, I am only 9 weeks today with my new pregnancy. If my last pregnancy pre-e had not been discovered by seeing the doc the day I did, I would have likely died, and not only my twins. My husband would have lost us all. By the time they found I had pre-e, I was starting to go towards HELLP. I know I had a close call for my own life as the mother. What helped me decide to try again was to realize that I am more likely to die in a car crash than to die from pre-e especially if I am self-monitoring carefully and being closely monitored by an MFM. She also reassured me my risk is low if being closely monitored. I know that I still get in the car everyday even just to buy some milk. Why would I not go into a pregnancy where I could possibly have a beautiful baby? That is how I remind myself to try not to be afraid. Although, we'll see how I feel when I am closer to the risky time, around 20 weeks! But, at least this time I will be extremely vigilant, whereas last time I did not even know what preeclampsia was. I hope you are doing well, and feeling a lot less scared these days. Update us if you can.

I had various degrees of fear, panic, anxiety throughout my pregnancy with Matilda.
To experience PE/HELLP is traumatic, to get pregnant again is like voluntarily putting yourself into the same situation with unknown outcome. It takes a lot of courage to do this. It is very normal to be scared.
I found it helpful to be busy with work, have family and friends who understand. I also saw my therapist on a regular basis. I called my doc a lot and lived one moment/day at a time.
Feel free to post any of your worries and fears, we are here and understand.

Sitting at work and becoming frightened. I had severe HELLP at 33w5d and delivered my beautiful son. I spent 3 days in ICU and was released to regular wing for the preemie mamas for 3 or 4 days after that.

Fast forward to today and I am 23w3d and becoming scared. I fear losing my life and not being able to enjoy my son or having some type of serious trauma. I feel like I made a foolish decision, and then I feel like I jinxed my new baby.

Coping with these fears is becoming harder and harder.

I need advice and words of wisdom.