by 7theaven » Sun Jun 05, 2011 08:41 am
I hate the place I'm in right now. After my last baby was born at 25wks, and I passed that point with this pregnancy, I allowed myself to believe I was going to have a take home baby. Well I didn't make it. Baby failed an nst and my pressures shot up and now I'm back at the nicu. She is healthy and doing well so I should be grateful but I am finding myself numb. It all happened so fast (8hrs from nst to delivery) and now I feel like my body has just failed me again. I can't believe I'm doing this again :'(
I hate the place I'm in right now. After my last baby was born at 25wks, and I passed that point with this pregnancy, I allowed myself to believe I was going to have a take home baby. Well I didn't make it. Baby failed an nst and my pressures shot up and now I'm back at the nicu. She is healthy and doing well so I should be grateful but I am finding myself numb. It all happened so fast (8hrs from nst to delivery) and now I feel like my body has just failed me again. I can't believe I'm doing this again :'(