Thanks for the responses, everyone. I keep having these "how ironic" thoughts, and there really isn't anyone else to share them with!!

I like the "risking your life to climb Mt. Everest and not even geting a baby out of it" analogy. Going to remember that.

Wishing baby dust to everyone!

~Sandy/DD born via emergency C at 35 wks/1 day June '03 due to Severe PE/class III HELLP

Risk factors: HBP/asthma/high cholesterol

currently TTC for #2

Carol,

That is a good point about risking your life, I think I will use that when family starts in on me about another pregnancy...

Julie (27)
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26wks - severe pe

Praying for a miracle... TTC #2 is a go!

Southern California Coordinator

Julie,
I really didn't expect you to answer that question! hehe! Some things need to be left to the imagination! Hmmmmmm........just kidding!!
Best of luck to you-and all of us TTC'ers

Renee mom to Alyssa-26wkr-1lb 4oz.-severe PE-now a happy and healthy 2 year old!
TTC#2!!!!

That is a brilliant point, Carol, I'd never thought of it that way before! Thanks!

Laura
Moderator/AK Coordinator

Mom to Alicia (severe PE) 5/98 and Camille (htn, oligo) 4/03
http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/c/camilleandallie/

"It is ironic, and it sucks!"--Julie

I fully expect to see this in the next edition of Bartlett's Familiar Quotations. Truer words were never spoken.

Sandy, if you ever think you're losing your nerve, think of all the stupid things people risk their lives for. People jump out of planes and climb Everest without oxygen, and there's no chance of a baby at the end of it.[8D]

Carol (38)
DH Bill (40)
Tara Mairichi
12/7-12/9, 2002
The Mightiest Little Angel

Renee - I'm not sure if my "fun" ideas would be appropriate to post... LOL...![:I] If I have any success with them though, I'll definitely send you an email...!



Julie (27)
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26wks - severe pe

Praying for a miracle... TTC #2 is a go!

Southern California Coordinator

Ditto, ditto, ditto to what everyone has said. Dh wanted to "take a break" after a few times of bd'ing this cycle and I think I may have missed the window--but who knows. IF his little swimmers are as strong and long-lasting as he would like to think they are (hehe!)-there may be some hope.
I feel the irony you are talking about Sandy, but like Catherine, I have a "Michael Jordan" playing on my court. I love my OB and I trust him and his opinion. He was very optimistic-yet not overly promising-about another pg. In other words, my chances of it happening again are significantly reduced since they have found me postiive for one of the anticardiolipin antibodies, but he realizes it still can happen again and he will take every precaution with me and treat me like a china doll!
Julie--got any "fun" ideas--I'm fresh out of them. I just want to "do it" and get it over with!--talk about unromantic Jill!!! :}

Renee mom to Alyssa-26wkr-1lb 4oz.-severe PE-now a happy and healthy 2 year old!
TTC#2!!!!

Oh Sandy,

I can appreciate the irony...[:(] I spent sooooo long trying not to get pregnant. Then, I finally decide that I'm "ready." Then, pregnancy practically kills me. Then, I have to say goodbye to the little love of my life... Now, I'm trying to get pg again because I think I'm "ready..."

Oh gosh, I didn't mean to sound so down. It's just that it is ironic, and it sucks!

I hope this month was your month!!

Jill - I agree that TTC is so unromantic... I'm going to try really hard to make it "fun" next month...!

Good luck to all!

Julie (27)
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26wks - severe pe

Praying for a miracle... TTC #2 is a go!

Southern California Coordinator

Sandy - HUGS, I understand about the frustration of TTC, seems so unromantic. Good luck with this cycle though. When charting with my daughter, I had a triphasic and tested - on DPO 11 and then + DPO 12, so you may be having different symptoms.

I agree with the peri too, I am meeting with one in June and I was guessing that is how it was going to go based on my meetings with my OB and research. At least we know that we will get the best care possible, to hopefully beat the disease this time. I am scared because had PIH with my son beginning at 30 weeks, delivered him at 36 weeks and had PIH with my daughter beginning at 27 weeks, developed severe preeclampsia and delivered her at 30 weeks - scared it will be even earlier and worse next time.

More HUGS!

Jill
mommy to:
Tyler - 4 (36 wks, PIH)
Angel baby - 1/20/03 (11 wks)
Faith Kristine - 1/5/04-1/30/04 (30 weeks due to severe PE, passed due to NEC & Sepsis(preemie complications))

Oh Sandy, I sympathize.

I didn't do the baby making part but I did have the first pregnancy visit with my peri which went a bit like...

"OK, I can't believe it and I know that you can't believe it too. No I wasn't stupid or careless, it just happened. SO.. will that whole mess happen again? How will I know? Will I get any warning? If I don't will it be too late for me and/or my baby this time because I used up all my luck last time out? What the heck are you going to do about it?????"

The answer I got back was.. "Don't know, can't know, you're in the game so we'll be playing the odds. I promise to try to the best of my being to make sure that you don't get so sick this time around. What that could mean for your baby we'll face if we have to."

There's a lot of trust, faith and a huge amount of self-doubt going along with the fear. Looking back, the one consolation from that day was that I knew that if my peri was forced onto the playing field, then I had "Michael Jordan" playing on my team. You may not believe it yet, but that will make a huge difference to how you feel down the line.

Hang in there Sandy...........[:X]

Catherine
Mom to Finn, Lucy (preeclampsia and HELLP) and Chloe.
Moderator HELLP Syndrome Survivors