Today started out grey and gloomy, but as I headed North and East, it got brighter and brighter, like you sweet Soleil. The clouds parted as I took the exit off 2 East. I steered towards the lake and found a sandy spot. I lay out my belongings and wrote your name in the sand. The waves crashed at the shore, erasing your name in the sand and gently took you back to the deep blue waters. I pondered about your due date and how you came too early. I watched a little girl run in and out of the water screaming and playing as the waves cooled her tiny legs. I think of how you might of done this as you explored the world around you, but were given back to God before you could encounter such things. I love you on this perfect day of rememberance.
I cried this morning and my mom encouraged me to stay in, but I persisted and have felt the wave of peace over me as I sit here on this private little beach. I saw a beautiful black and yellow butterfly and chased it with my camera, trying to catch the perfect picture. It was like you were fluttering around the water line and I played and danced with you. Then a cute little weiner dog was jumping an digging for rocks and it made me laugh hysterically. Instead of crying your loss, I felt thanks in the abundance of life around me. Thank you for this day Soleil. Every year I will remember you by a beach, a lake or a pond, where ever it may be. July 15th will be our little secret of celebrating our bond with smiles, earth and sky, and dance!
Soleil Sophia Wooley
born sleeping May 23, 2012
severe pre-eclampsia and infection
due date: July 15th, 2012