I gave birth by emergency c section on January 31st 2011 at 33 weeks. My little boy spent 17 days in scbu. I had pre eclampsia, eclampsia and hello, I am also rhesus negative, allergic to latex and can not take any codine or anti inflammatory medication. My son and I were kept in different hospitals for the first 2 days of his life as I was too sick to move and they needed the baby bed for a smaller baby. It was a very difficult time for my husband running between 2 hospitals seeing his tiny baby and very sick wife. After I had started on the road to recovery we were told some very tough facts about our chances of having another child and resigned ourselves to loving the angel we had been blessed with. Jonathan is turning 2 in January and all of my mummy friends are talking or are already pregnant with number 2 and I find myself longing. I have an appointment to take to my gp about our options, we looked into adoption which seems near impossible and then I stumbled upon some success stories on here and so I am wondering could this be possible for us or would it be selfish of me to try, like playing Russian roulette. I am scared of the pain and all the needles and drugs I had to go through the first time, scared of being parted once again from my baby, scared of bringing into the world a baby too small to survive and having to watch it slip away. How can I know what is right and wrong and whether we should just try? I hope to hear from some of you to help me gain some perspective.