Lauren,I made it through with most of my sanity intact (I'm sure some would beg to differ!) through two subsequent pregnancies. It's so hard. Your eyes are so open to everything. You know too well that pregnancy is not a promise. And while those wide open eyes to everything that can happen make it all extra scary- it's also what you can rely on to provide you a little measure of comfort that you are an experienced momma. This pregnancy is different, and you are different- forever touched by your sweet twins.
I know its cliche, but one day at a time. A friend told me to "fake it, til I make it." So while I was uber scared to be excited or get attached to our 2nd, I did things anyway- took belly pictures, talked to baby, tried to do all the normal pregnancy things- along with all the non-normal things like having a spreadsheet of my care... doctors on "text" support... and the knowledge of how many days I was from viability and what my lil' one looked like at the same gestation their older sib was born. I also sought counsel from a psychologist that specialized in medical trauma and learned relaxation strategies that I credit with saving some of my sanity and a very peaceful birth.
One day- one week at a time- and lean on us and other friends and family who understand when you need.
Lauren
Thank you so much for your encouraging and supportive words. I am trying to do all the things that helped you. It helps to have the support of women who have been through it as you have.