So here I am

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Postby lucy » Mon Dec 02, 637348 10:53 pm

Susan I posted on the parents of preemie forum and I am at as much as a loss for words, I was sop ulling for your little girl I am sending so much love right now and I know that I cant give any of us back the thing we all want but oh my gosh I am just so sorry I told my husband last night and just cryed, please know we all care about you so much I am so sorry that I dont know the magic healing words but if you need anyone I am here I am just soo sorry

Lucy (18) -Mom to Sebanna Sarine 6 lbs 7 ozs and 20 inches long born April 9 2005 at 37 wks following 3 1/2 wks of hosplization Diagnosed with pre-eclampsia again at 31 wks April 9-May 20 2005 Ill never understand why we lost her but I will forever love her

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Postby fiona » Mon Dec 02, 637348 7:10 pm

Oh Susan, I wish I were able to say something that would help, but I know it's hopeless. I am so sad that you had to say goodbye to your precious, beautiful little girl. When Nate died, I was advised not to rush into a funeral - and it was good advice. My husband and I were able to come up with a simple but beautiful service for him that still gives me comfort when I think back to it.

Take it a day, an hour at a time.

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ds Nate 12/8/97 - 14/8/97 26 weeks severe pre-e IUGR 1lb
ds Jay 4/11/98 30 weeks pre-e 3lbs 11 oz
ds Sacha 23/5/05 36 weeks 3 days 7lbs 9oz PIH but no pe!!!

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Postby kdreher » Mon Dec 02, 637348 5:21 pm

I really hate that you are here...because it is such a painful place at times, that those of us who have had a loss don't want anyone else to feel what we are feeling. I remember the next day after loosing Tyler as well, my father took me to the funeral home with my dh and I couldn't get across the street - the entire process, once inside, was a stepmother had to help me buy an outfit to wear - my family planned his funeral. Lean on those around you who offer and who are is times like this when we must be able to ask for help even if we don't want it.

I sent you an email as well......

Again, I am so sorry for your loss.

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My Angel - Tyler 3/9/95 to 3/23/95 (15 oz, 26 wks severe pe/HELLP)
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Postby j betts » Mon Dec 02, 637348 12:00 pm


I am sorry about precious baby Corine. None of this makes sense. You will be in my thoughts. Lots of hugs to you.

Mommy to Mia Alexandra
12/23/02(stillborn @ 36 wks due to complete placental abruption, caused by severe PRE-E and HELLP SYNDROME)

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Postby sjs40 » Mon Dec 02, 637348 5:27 am

Susan I am so sorry that you had to say goodbye to Corine. I am one of those who has been reading your updates and praying that Corine would pull through, but didnt feel able to post. I know just what you have been through as my Ellie had NEC but didnt survive long enough for the operation. I didn't want to post anything negative when Corine was fighting so hard.

As Melissa said, you did the right thing turning off the machines and letting Corine be at peace. I know that doesnt make it easier, and nobody should have to make that decision. Corine knew you and knew how much she was loved.

Your life will be changed forever, but Corine will always be a part of you.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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Chris (38)
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Postby mom2tori » Mon Dec 02, 637348 12:40 am

Susan, I am so sorry that your heart is now scarred with this horrible pain of goodbye to Corine. Please know that the love you have for her and share with her will carry you to another day and will NEVER diminish or vanish. You are in my prayers and thoughts.

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Dominic 9/10/97-9/11/97 @ 28 weeks
Victoria 1/8/02 @ 30 weeks

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Postby cassie05 » Sun Dec 01, 637348 11:57 pm

Susan, I am devestated that you had to join us in the pain of losing a baby, there are just too many of us. I wish I could take your pain away, you will probably be numb for a while, I still am, there are times when I think Kaitlyns death has really hit me but I dont think it quite has yet. Please know that we are here for you no matter what and my family and friends are all praying for you

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stephen...severe pre-e...delivered at 27+6...1 lb 12 oz
and my sweet little angel Kaitlyn Victoria, passed before her first breath May 22nd, 2005....27 weeks 4days...blood clot, hemorage and rupture in the umbelical cord

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Postby sweetiesuzy » Sun Dec 01, 637348 10:05 pm

Susan -

I am so sorry. There are just no words. It will all feel so surreal for awhile. Take each moment as it comes. There is no right or wrong way about any of this from this point on. Do what you feel you need to do to grieve.

Corine will be forever remembered. We are here for you.


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Chloe Rose ~ 10/26/01 Stillbirth
Samuel Isaac ~ 12/30/02
Laura Elise ~ 7/19/04

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Re : So here I am

Postby tanya » Sun Dec 01, 637348 9:56 pm

I too am so sorry to see you posting in this section. I am very fortunate that I have not had to deal with the loss of a child but also know there aren't any words to make the pain easier for you right now. Sending you big, big hugs...

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Leah born 2/4/99 at 34 weeks ...PIH
Miscarriage 10 weeks
Grant born 3/29/01 at 31 weeks... Severe PE
Jace born 1/18/05...No PE or PIH~Perfect pregnancy

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Postby julie f » Sun Dec 01, 637348 9:52 pm

Oh Susan, I am so so very sorry that you're here... I remember waking up the day after Zach died, not understanding how life could just go on...

I am so so sorry, I wish I had the right words for you. Please know that we will all be here for you, however you need us and as much as you need us. Grief can be very lonely, please know that you have women across the world here who love you and are praying for you.

Oh Susan, I am holding you so close to my heart right now, I wish I could be there in person.

Much love,

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