by julie f (7993 Posts), Thu Nov 13, 2003 07:24 pm
It has been quiet. Suzanna, thank you for getting the ball rolling...
Christmas is has always been my favorite time and I just pray that I can keep it together this year, I had so many plans... I am actually looking forward to celebrating the holidays with my husband, I feel like we really need the warm fuzzies and the rituals of it all right now. What I am not really excited about is celebrating the holidays with all of our extended families. Everyone has tried to "share" in our grief and while I know they are grieving too, I feel that they cannot possibly understand what my husband and I are going through and I resent the fact that they try and relate. My mother-in-law often refers to Zach as, "OUR little guy" and says things like, "I can't believe this has happened to OUR family..." She even once told me that she made a donation to the Special Olympics because, "had OUR little boy made it..." I know that she means well but, I find her words incredibly insensitive. And unfortunately, I haven't gathered up the courage to tell her how upset her behavior makes me - you'd think after all I've been through, I'd have the courage to do anything.[;)]
Anyway, I guess I have strayed off topic a bit... I just wanted to say that I keep everyone here in my prayers and will continue to do so.
Kim, my thoughts are with you as you approach your due date. I just passed mine in October. I began to feel a bit better after it passed but, with the holidays approaching, I feel like I'm sometimes moving backwards instead of forwards. Little things get me - like taking our Christmas picture for the cards, it's just me and my husband, it is supposed to be me, DH and Zachary. But, like you, I am going to try and focus on the wonderful reasons for this season.
Keeping you all in my prayers.
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26 weeks due to severe pe