My due date...Feb.14th

[angelkat]

Gloria....

I can remember the same thoughts. I really think it's part of our healing process. My DH and I often wondered what if we did get preg again what would our chances be... Well, after speaking with our peri and looking over and over my records we did decide to move forward and start the road of TTC again. It was a very hard decision to make but, we prayed about it for a long time. On Katlyne's first birthday my husband told me that he was ready to try again and wanted to start the process again (infertility treatments). We were very blessed to get preg on our first cycle.

I will always keep you in my prayers for strength and comfort.


Hugs
~T

Mommy to
Drew(13)
Ky (11)
~i~ Katlyne(12/9/02-04/02/03) and little bud (Due 09/11/04)http://www.forevernetwork.com/Archive/lifestory.cfm?Archive_ID=10971&Directory=%2FArchives%2FMountHope&CFID=1089289&CFTOKEN=79068509

[deerhart]

I want to extend my thoughts out to you. While I am among the lucky who's children survived through my ordeals with PE, I can somewhat understand the gloom and despair as your due date approaches. Not only are you dealing with the loss of your child, but also the loss of your pregnancy and the ideals you had about it. That alone can be overwhelming.

Erin

Moderator - First Time Moms, Parents of Preemies
Interm Chapter President - St. Louis/Missouri
Mommy to Alex and Mason

[josiah1112]

Dear AngelKat and (all who have had losses in the past)

How do you get past the realization that- this may happen again?
I remember the roller coaster ride once things started to go
wrong in my pregnancy... I fought hard to be optimistic and
knew that God could do anything to show us his miracles.
Even after I delivered and my son was just over a pound I
thought that God could use this to show his glory and power.
(Which he could've but he chose not to). The prayers by all
my friends and congregation...the fasting... I guess the
hardest thing about it is that it is not something material
like a house or car. -It's your child! Your own flesh and
blood, whom you'd give your life for in order to protect....
And if they are in a better place with God, why bring them
here?

Gloria mom to Josiah 11/12/03 - 12/4/03 born @ 26wks Pre e

[angelkat]

Gloria...

You never get past the what if's or the why's... I still ask myself each and everyday what would I do if something goes wrong with this pregnancy and I just have to leave it all up to God's hands. He blessed us with a special child for me Katlyne was a little girl who touched so many lives- she had a special project from the start. I would ask over and over again for complete healing for her and she was completely healed the day she went to be in his arms. Was I angry? - you bet ya, I would just go thru the steps of going to church but it really was a blur as I could not worship since I was still angry that my little girl was gone. On one hand we were blessed with a wonderful little girl and then next min she was taken away from us. But I know she is right there next to me each and everyday. I feel the sun and know that she is shinning down on me. Believe me, it takes time to heal and some never heal but never forget that you have a special baby in heaven. After many months I can finally enjoy church again and yes, I still have bad days but they seem to be less and less.

My blessings to you and your family.... I do wish for peace and comfort for you I will cont to pray for you!....




Hugs
~T

Mommy to
Drew(13)
Ky (11)
~i~ Katlyne(12/9/02-04/02/03) and little bud (Due 09/11/04)http://www.forevernetwork.com/Archive/lifestory.cfm?Archive_ID=10971&Directory=%2FArchives%2FMountHope&CFID=1089289&CFTOKEN=79068509

[josiah1112]

Thank You. I appreciate your honest response. I guess I
am in a different place than you are in your mourning. I
feel so saddened by what has happened to my son. I am
making it through, but I feel so hurt with God over this!
I am not spiritually motivated at all. When I go to church
I feel like I am just going through the motions.
I am also not motivated to read my bible much. I have been
asking different friends how they would feel if this had
happened to them? Their responses have made me feel less
crazy and unspiritual.

Take Care,

Gloria mom to Josiah 11/12/03 - 12/4/03

[angelkat]

Hang in there... It does take time and nobody can tell you how long it will take to start healing. The only one that knows that answer is you. Take all the time you need- Don't let anyone tell you any different -how you should feel.



Hugs
~T

Mommy to
Drew(13)
Ky (11)
~i~ Katlyne(12/9/02-04/02/03) and little bud (Due 09/11/04)http://www.forevernetwork.com/Archive/lifestory.cfm?Archive_ID=10971&Directory=%2FArchives%2FMountHope&CFID=1089289&CFTOKEN=79068509