I am very sorry for your loss. There are way too many of us out there. I too had severe pre e and on Nov 29th at 25 weeks 4 days, had my little angel Lauren McKenna weighing 1 pound 5 ounces. We had her for one week. On Dec 6th, she passed due to an infection which stopped her heart. She was such a fighter. Feisty was the word the docs used. They were all very shocked that this happened. She was so strong and such a wiggle worm. I do not know how to get over this myself, but I can only hope time will heal. I also hope that talking to other people in the same situation can help. You had mentioned that God will only give us what we can handle.....I just feel like I cannot handle this. It gets harder for me each day. My original due date is coming up (Mar 9th) and I am hoping that once I get passed this hurdle, I can start to mend. I want you to know that you can write to me any time. I think this is our outlet. Take care...