just wanted to find out how people coped on mother's day, i know the day is in may for you guys but here in the uk it's today. This is my first mother's day since i lost Jake.
I am having a really difficult day and am beside myself with sadness, i am missing my son terribly and no one seems to remember that i am a mum too!!!!
2 of my best friends rang today as they have just come back from their hoildays last night, but i just couldn't talk far too many tears, and they asked what was wrong, i said to them it's mothers day and then it clicked with them and said they were sorry for not realising, but why do people think that i am not a mother just because my child is'nt here pyhsically. It really hurts, and just feels like everyone has forgot that i had a precious child.
I have been feeling so much more positive recently but today feels like i took 1 step forward only to be dragged 3 steps back in my grief. No one around me understands because they haven't been through this nightmare, believe me i wouldn't want anyone to feel this way, but just for them to understand that i am the mother of a beautiful child.
Just needed to get these feelings off my chest i know you guys have experienced what i am going through, at least here i can VENT!!!! and people here will know what on earth i am on about.
severe PE/class 1 HELLP @ 27wks
13th oct 2003
mummy to angel jake