by gossamer (242 Posts), Thu May 20, 2004 11:33 pm
Thank you for your words of comfort. Mary ROse never spent any time in the NICU and my Husband's family is not really ready to deal with her loss yet, even though it was almost 10 months ago. They never talk to me about her or bring her up. I have no communication with my family, so it might just be my husband and I. I have not yet decided what to do.
I am so sad right now.
I have an appointment with an OB-Gyn on the 27th. We are not going to try to conceive again until next spring, but I have about 48 pages of questions to ask him and I want to know what he thinks I should be doing to get ready to get pregnant. It is so different now. With Mary ROse, we just did. Now everything has to be so planned and monitored.
It is just amazing how such a little person, that I never got to meet, has totally and completely changed my life, and so much for the better.
I am at the stage now that every time I see a little baby, I seriously think about stealing them. Of course I never would, but I do play that fantasy in my head. That would be a good way to get into trouble wouldn't it? Guess I have rambled enough for now. Thank you for listening.
"Before you were conceived, I wanted you. Before you were born, I loved you. Before you were a minute old, I would have died for you.
This is the miracle of life. " -Maureen Hawkins