by naomihope427 (247 Posts), Fri Dec 18, 2009 06:51 am
My gosh, this post made me want to cry, yet im just numb right now. I thought maybe I was the only one feeling this way. I came up yestday morning to Pennsylvania with my sister because I wasn't doing well back at my home (iwith my family im 22) im not working right now or going to school, and well after my mom dropped us off at airport, I started to cry because I had Naomi in my hands (in her little box, I had to bring her with me) and then we got to our gate, go figures, there was about an 9 or 10 month old baby girl on our flight, thank God we were able to go fist class. I saw her with her daddy smiling I jumped up and had to walk around the airport until we boarded. Then I got on the airplane and started crying I couldn't hold it because I thought I shouldn't be on here ishould be with Naomi. No one seems to understand. Even my friend Kylee asked me one day last week if I wanted to go to the beach iwht her and her niece, who isl ike 10 months old. I saw her in the hospital (after she was born) and I was still pregnant about 20 weeks. Does she not know I can't be around babies esp girls? It upset me so much I told her I can't do that. Wherever you go "you can't get away" from the pain I try and tell people. I haven't been out of state since Naomi passed, & its just killing me. I miss her so much. Especially now during the holidays. I sleep because I don't feel the pain, as I get up, im empty again. RIP my beautiful angel & all of you are in my thoughts, I really hate this horrible horrible disease.