I find it weird, that never before have I been invited to my friends daughters/sons birthday parties or baby showers..until now. Now that Naomi is gone, people are asking me to attend. I don't get it. A few weeks ago, my friend sent me a message wanting to have my mother & I both attend her daughters 1st birthday party next month. I without even thinking about it wrote back saying I am sorry but I am not ready to attend yet she replied "we understand". I was also invited to another little boys party (2 yr old) and even though I say being around little boys or infants are somewhat easier , I just couldn't bring myself to go. Am I wrong not to attend? Its only been 8 months since Naomi has been gone. I just don't think I am strong enough and don't want to ruin it for anyone.
Also, last night I had a dream about an acquitance of mine, that I was with my friend and her. The girl is pregnant and also in my dream we were driving somewhere in a car & the whole time it bothered me & I cried in the dream. Now I never rarely talk to this girl and especially now I just can't she's pregnant with another little girl on the way. I woke up and I get a text from her "hey were having our little girls babyshower on feb 27th hope you can come". My mouth dropped yet also I was crushed. One I thought how in the heck? I never talk to her andi had a dream about her And yet I get a text about her babyshower (I never ended up having one, it was in the works). And just so happens the Feb 27th marks Naomi being 10 months old. =( I responded back saying im not ready & im sorry it also marks what Naomi would be on that day. Am I wrong again? I feel like I am in a way. I just keep putting down these things, a babyshower I never got to have and being its not even been a year. Its still fresh, do people not remember??