by kbunsey (895 Posts), Thu Feb 04, 2010 08:59 pm
Hmmmm......You (we) never know do we until we get there? I thought going back to school (work - I'm a teacher and currently working in an elementary school) would be tough last fall (2008) after losing Fiona in the summer of '08, but it ended up being OK. It was good for me. I was afraid, though, that being with all the children would be too much for me. It was good - nice actually. Sometimes it was weird - thinking and wondering and longing for my own child - but overall it was healthy for me to participate with children again even after my loss - children have always been my life's work - so it was OK for me. I couldn't just turn away form children. In a way - I think it made me even more interested in helping and being with the children. I remember telling my husband that I felt myself being more tuned into the children in a new way. If it doesn't work out for you - just be mindful of yourself and your needs - y'know. Don't judge or critique yourself. I struggled with going to a couple baby showers recently (little baby girl showers) - I went, but I had to be really attentive to myself and my own personal care around the baby girl issues. So just take care of yourself well and if you can't - you can't.