Well, it is here again, Griffin's Birthday. He would have been four today. Four is a big boy, not a baby anymore. Every year it is different, this year I feel sad and angry all at once. Not pretty. Dh and I are having trouble communicating with each other, and I am snapping at the kids :(. I just want to fast forward through the days until Monday (Sunday is Griffin's Angel Day), because I can feel that things are not going to get better.