In just about 29 minutes, it will officially be Naomi's 1st Birthday & 1st year in Heaven. I cannot believe its been a year already. The anticipation for this day has been VERY very hard. I partly just want to sleep the day away. But I can't. I planned something very special for her, a celebration with some friends & family. I am a nervous wreck & sad, thinking maybe I shouldn't have and just had something small & simple at the house.
I talked to her earlier tonight & I just started bawling my eyes out. We have planned where a good 10 of my friends and family come together at a local park, have some food, and my best friend is making cupcakes, she's a BEAUTIFUL baker. We will have balloon releasing & signing, and a walk for the steps she should be making.
I also found out there is a mass for her tomorrow morning at 8 am. I haven't been up that early in months. Im going to be a wreck tomorrow.
I love you & miss you so so so much Naomi Hope. I haven't said the words yet,,this is my first time..
HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY MY BEAUTIFUL SWEETPEA NAOMI.
My mom bought me candles & a lotion set from bath & body this afternoon. The "sweet pea" smell. I didn't think much of it but I know that's my favorite smell. She then told me you always called her "sweet pea" in the NICU. I said that's right I sure did. I will be burning a candle for her all day tomorrow too.
This is just so so difficult.