by naomihope427 (247 Posts), Mon Apr 26, 2010 11:54 pm
My best friend & I were just texting, because I am having a hard time, within 15 minutes it will be April 27, Naomi's 1st Birthday.
We were talking about her being held & how I thought a couple months back when I lost her that I caused her to get sick & die. I was so angry pointing fingers at everyone & including myself.
I was telling my best friend how I should have beenthe only one to hold her. I let my mom, my sister & my friend hold her.
I CAN'T HELP BUT THINK IF I DIDN'T AND I ONLY HELD HER SHE WOULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN SICK AND SHE WOULD BE HERE TO CELEBRATE WITH HER MOMMY & EVERYONE HER 1ST BIRTHDAY!!!
Has anyone else thought of such a thing? Am I going crazy? How can I have known for sure? I just don't get it. No answers will bring her back. I just think maybe shed be here.