Oh Anika, I don't know what advice I could give to make it any easier... My birthday was such a hard day and my Mom (with very good intentions) threw me a surprise party and it was all I could do to get through the evening. If I could go back, I would just have a quiet evening with DH like you are going to. Do what you need to do to get through the day, don't let someone tell you what you "should" be doing.
I keep you in my prayers and I just pray that the days will start to become a bit easier and that hope and some happiness will not be too far off.
Sending you lots of long distance hugs,
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26wks - severe pe
Miracle in progress... #2 is due February 9, 2005!!!!
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