one year on....

[jules2]

It was this time last year (6th May) I was diagnosed and admitted to hospital at 25+5 gestation with BP 190/110 and 3+ protein. The 7th late in the evening Alice died, despite having had apparently normal uterine artery blood flow and a normal ultrasound only a few hours earlier. There was nothing on the placenta to explain this - she was not severely SGA and I'll never really understand why she didn't get a chance in the NICU.

The next day I woke early about 29 pounds heavier and was transferred to intensive care due to BP of 230/110, falling o2 sats and 5 beats of clonus. I finally was stabilised later that day and delivered her very quickly in the early hours of the 9th May.

The trauma still makes me shake when I think about it, and the emotions being 6 weeks pregnant again (and fearing another mc, but fearing not miscarrying even more...) does not help.

I do want to thank you all for your support over the last year... I don't know where the time has gone, its passed in a blur really, especially last year from May to December.

[angieb]

Big hugs to you on this tough day. Hang in there.

[rosemary]

Julia...my thoughts are with you ... and as you face the hard days ahead..I wish you peace and healing. Many hugs to you.

[wrennie]

Im so sorry you are going through all this. I hope you can find some peace. Pregnancy after a loss is hard, it takes patience and a lot of deep breaths. I wish you a long and successful pregnancy, you deserve it. Hang in there.

[love_the_daschies]

Julie I sorry you are at your hard days ( I really don't know what else to call them). Being pregnant and worried makes it that much harder. I hope you can take some deep breaths and find some peace as you remember Alice. My thoughts are with you.