My heart is breaking for you right now. I delivered my son at 25 weeks gestation stillborn after 10 weeks of bedrest and a little over 2 of those weeks in the hospital. Finding out he was gone before he was born was just horrible, they asked if I wanted to go thru a regular delivery since I had just had c-sections in the past but I couldnt do it and asked they schedule my surgery asap. So sorry for your loss. [hugs]
I just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you. I, too, have been there and it isn't easy. My best advice is to not expect too much too soon from yourself and, of course, feel free to vent to us at any time. We are here for you.