1 month tomorrow

[holly3372@msn.com]

It will be 1 month tomorrow that my baby Benjamin died.I am dreading this my heart aches.

[kerisue]

One month down was really, really hard for me too Holly. I never understood how pain could be such an awful physical ache, but I do now. I'm so sorry about Benjamin.

[sam10]

So sorry you lost your Benjamin.
Every first is hard after a loss. This one especially. Will be thinking of you. (hugs)...

[rosemary]

(((HUGS))) Holly...thinking of you and your sweet Benjamin.

[miamibunnie]

Every now and then, I feel like if my heart was pounding really fast and it is a pain that you only feel and it is not easy to explain. I feel like I am lost and question myself why why...and thats when I start to cry. It hurts so bad because it is something you are not expecting. I miss being pregnant and having her close to my heart.

[wrennie]

so sorry for your loss, thinking of you and your angel..

[brandonsmommy0813]

Holly, I know exactly how you feel. I lost my 1st baby on 8/13/10...and I cried alot on the 1 month mark. I have to say that the last week has gotten easier. I've been back to work and too busy to sit around and "think". But as soon as I have my quiet moment, it all comes back. We have have to take it day by day at this point so close to our loss. I have read, and read, and read this forum since I got home from the hospital....and only today am I making my first post....to you.

Miamibunnie-What you wrote :
"Every now and then, I feel like if my heart was pounding really fast and it is a pain that you only feel and it is not easy to explain. I feel like I am lost and question myself why why...and thats when I start to cry. It hurts so bad because it is something you are not expecting. I miss being pregnant and having her close to my heart."

That is EXACTLY how it feels!!!!!!