I won't say you're lucky Jasmin because none of us who've lost a child are lucky. But I've heard that the loss of a child can break up a marriage and yours seems to be weathering what has to be one of the worst possible storms. It's so nice that you're giving hubby some time, despite the fact that you're ready now. I don't have that problem. Millie's dad never met her (he doesn't live in the area) though I did get him to cry when I told him about her death (I don't think he appreciated the gravity of her situation and how strong the possibility was that she might die). On the upside I can try again when I'm ready, on the downside, no one to mourn her with me. For you, I hope that your readiness and Franks is not too far apart.