I was looking at videos in my camera, and Naomi's popped up and I watched 2 mins out of the 3 minutes of video. I heard myself talking to her on there and asking her to open her eyes for mommy, and she did. Tears started streaming down my face and I just couldnt watch anymore. Seeing her in that thing, and hearing the beeping noises just all brought it all back so real. I miss my sweet Naomi so much. I take her pictures I have up in my room and show them to her sister, and cry, and I tell her this is your big sister. Some day I will tell her all about her yet it will be so difficult
On Saturday, there is a Forget me Not event that I wasnt able to attend last year, due to it being so shortly after my loss of Naomi. I want to go this year for Naomi. It will be a planting of trees, lunch and butterfly release. My best friend and OB triage nurse that has seen me plenty of times this preg wants to come. I just know it will not be easy going but I must do it for Naomi and all the other sweet babies. I will need to work on a poem and bring a few pictures of Naomi.
I just miss her. So so much.