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Happy First Birthday Baby Blue

Postby riehlism » Sat Jun 04, 2011 00:58 am

by riehlism (655 Posts), Sat Jun 04, 2011 00:58 am

Our son, Francisco James Riehl Jimeno, was born on June 3, 2010 at 9:40 pm, 24+6. He was 1lb 7oz and 12.25 inches.

It is a very strange feeling to visit our son at the cemetery, while feeling our new baby kicking inside my belly. We miss him so much. Over the course of the year, the intensity of the pain is less. I am thankful that my husband and I have worked hard together in dealing with our grief. We both feel prepared to love and care for our new baby while keeping the love and memory of Blue separate. We know little Snowflake isn't a replacement and that is very reassuring.

We decided to take the day off today. We stayed snuggled in bed and recalled the events of the day leading to his birth. It was sad. It is still sad. But we also talked about how much of his personality came out in the few months he was growing inside me. Our memories are short, yet profound.

I wish other mom's celebrating their babies lives the same kind of peace. To moms learning to deal with grief, it gets better. Time and effort is key. But it does get better.

I miss my Baby Blue. Happy Birthday and sweet dreams.
Jasmin: Severe PE/HELLP and delivered at 24+6 & PCOS (29) Hubby Bubby, Frank (29)
Baby Blue stopped in to say hello and goodbye on 6/3/10
Baby Lucas was born on 10/13/11, PE and HELLP-free! Thank you baby aspirin and Lovenox
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Re: Happy First Birthday Baby Blue

Postby flori » Sat Jun 04, 2011 04:49 am

by flori (225 Posts), Sat Jun 04, 2011 04:49 am

Happy birthday, Baby Blue.

Jasmin, you are an inspiration for those of us that are just beginning this journey. I hope you, dh, and Snowflake have a long, uneventful pregnancy and we get to see pictures in November.
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Re: Happy First Birthday Baby Blue

Postby cmccaffrey » Sat Jun 04, 2011 12:10 am

by cmccaffrey (458 Posts), Sat Jun 04, 2011 12:10 am

Jasmin, I started crying while reading your note. I am so glad that the two of you were able to spend that time together. When I was pregnant, I dreamt of streamers, cupcakes, and laughter for Mason's first, now that everything has happened, I would want to celebrate the anniversary of his birth just as you and your husband celebrated Francisco's. It just seemed so peaceful and filled with so much love. You are such a strong and inspiring mama! I also can't wait to see some pics of Baby Snowflake in November!
Christa (25) & J (26)
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Mason born 10.11.10 @ 30+3 wks due to Severe Pre-E. Only lived 2.5 days
Noah born 2.1.12 @ 38 weeks thanks to lots of doctors visits, LDA, Lovenox and no preeclampsia!

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Re: Happy First Birthday Baby Blue

Postby kerisue » Sat Jun 04, 2011 12:12 am

by kerisue (623 Posts), Sat Jun 04, 2011 12:12 am

Was thinking of you, Frank, and Blue yesterday. Sounds like it was a bittersweet day. He will always be the one who made you a mother. Wish I could hug you!
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born June 2010 @ 24 wks. gestation due to my severe PE and CHF
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Re: Happy First Birthday Baby Blue

Postby » Sat Jun 04, 2011 01:09 pm

by (478 Posts), Sat Jun 04, 2011 01:09 pm

Happy Birthday baby Blue! I am so glad you were able to be together,you have truly come a long way in your healing. We also took the day off Benjamins birthday(April 28th). It was bittersweet as well. We talked and then my parents,in laws, sister,grandma cousins nieces and nephews came over. We released ballonns and each wrote something on them. We had cake and although we didn't sing happy birthday Max did light one candle so we could all make a wish and let the kids blow them out.
I read your posts and have learned alot through you and your journey of loss,ttc and now being pregnant. We are hoping to try after August. August would be one year since we lost Ben,he lived for 4 months in the nicu. It has been a long year . You are an inspiration to me to grieve in the healthiest way I can,to love and remember my beautiful baby and at the same time continue to move foward,to live and to have hope. Thinking of you and your family,sending love. xo
Benjamin Spider Reeves born 4-28-2010( 1lb 6oz 26 weeks to severe pre-e and Iugr) we lost you after 4 long months in the NICU. You fought so hard,and were so brave.Our first baby .We miss you everyday and love you forever xo

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Re: Happy First Birthday Baby Blue

Postby sam10 » Sat Jun 04, 2011 07:26 pm

by sam10 (1448 Posts), Sat Jun 04, 2011 07:26 pm

Happy 1st Birthday Baby Blue.
~Julija (42)
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H (1/1/2010-1/7/2010) - forever loved and missed; severe PE with Hellp; partial placental abruption, classical c-section at 25.6 weeks
M (Nov. 2012, born at 35.4 weeks) - severe PE

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Re: Happy First Birthday Baby Blue

Postby uncskristy » Mon Jun 06, 2011 09:11 am

by uncskristy (171 Posts), Mon Jun 06, 2011 09:11 am

I am thinking of you, your hubby and Baby Blue
Mommy of Three Boys- Davis 10/4/2007(No PE, overbaked at 40wks, 2 days),
Cooper 5/20/2010-5/21/2010 (born too early at 24wks, 2 days due to severe PE) and
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Re: Happy First Birthday Baby Blue

Postby jules2 » Mon Jun 06, 2011 02:55 pm

by jules2 (514 Posts), Mon Jun 06, 2011 02:55 pm

Belated thoughts to you. This is so hard xx
May 2009 - Alice stillborn at 26 weeks due to severe PE and HELLP post-partum

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Re: Happy First Birthday Baby Blue

Postby blythe » Mon Jun 06, 2011 06:33 pm

by blythe (3059 Posts), Mon Jun 06, 2011 06:33 pm

Happy birthday Francisco. June 3 is the day that my childhood friend died of leukemia, and she was one of the sweetest people I've ever known. I will keep you and your amazing loving parents - and the parents and so many of the other babies here whose lives have been all too short - in mind now when I remember her.
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#2 8-11-06 - 6#14oz 37 weeks PE/PIH
#3 9-10-09 - 5#10oz 37 weeks PE/PIH
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Re: Happy First Birthday Baby Blue

Postby rosemary » Tue Jun 07, 2011 06:07 pm

by rosemary (2360 Posts), Tue Jun 07, 2011 06:07 pm

Jasmin...sorry for the late post...please know that you are in my thoughts. HUGS!
Rosemary - 47 - Central, PA
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Elliott 8/29/04 - lost at 20 weeks due to severe PE/HELLP
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