The Small Things that hurt

[uncskristy]

Its amazing how small little reminders that Cooper is not here hurt a lot. This morning at a doctor's appointment I had to hand over my insurance card that reads:
1. Matthew A.
2.Kristina
3. Matthew D.
5. Blaine
Where's my number 4?
Then I was reading a magazine that had a picture a mother had sent in of her three year old little boy Cooper working on a craft. (Cooper would have been three on May 20th) And I can not tell you how many little boys named Cooper I know of now. I thought I had picked an somewhat original name. The worst was last year on what would have been Cooper's 2nd birthday watching my oldest son having fun playing ice hockey with a little boy named Cooper.
I know the pain will never go away but seriously can life just cool it with the reminders!

[sam10]

The reminders come unexpected and at random, I feel. As much as I feel I am ok with my situation, there it comes out of the blue and it can hurt so bad all over again.

[kerisue]

I think that missing #4 would hurt every time I saw it.

[ashleyhae]

I am a preschool teacher, I knew going back after the loss of my daughter would be incredibly difficult and it was. I've been back for 4 months now and most of the questions that I couldn't answer have stopped, many kids have forgotten or moved on. But just today a little girl asked me if I still had the baby in my tummy. It brings it all back in an instant, I know they are completely innocent and I have learned to give a quick answer and move on to the next subject.

[MomTimesThree]

The innocence, and honest questions from kids can be heartbreaking and heartwarming. One of the best comments I ever received was from a pre-teen student I knew with cognitive delays. He told me "That sucks. I'm sorry."

Wishing you moments of peace,
Lauren