Please know how sorry I am for what you are going through. Ila's due date was exactly 3 months ago, and so your sorrow is unfortunately quite fresh in my mind. For me, the two or so weeks surrounding that day were amongst the hardest, as it was then that I was so conscious of what should have been, rather than what was. Slowly, this pain diminished and although it has never left me (and never will, I'm sure), I suppose my coping mechanism has kicked in once again. I am able to smile when I think of my little girl, and all the lives she has touched, despite never having known many of the people she meant so much to. She continues to work her tiny miracles (I see this in relationships with family and friends), inspiring myself and others, and this makes me so proud.
Wishing you comfort and peace and bigbig hugs.
angel Ila Elizabeth (02.06.04),
pea-in-the-pod, EDD 04.01.05