A year ago today

[sjs40]

A year ago today was the day we lost our precious little Ellie. I woke at 4am this morning, the exact time that we had the knock on the door to say the time was near.
So many people have remembered the significance of today, I am feeling quite humbled right now. Ellie made quite an impression on people in her short life.
Yesterday I had a big surprise when a woman who was in hosp with me knocked at my door. She had brought flowers for Ellie. She lost a twin at birth and the other twin Joshua was in NICU with Ellie. He was a day younger but a bit bigger. I often wondered how he got on. Well, there he was yesterday! It was a shock, but it was nice to see he was ok, and I even managed a cuddle. The first time I have been near a baby in a year. It was upsetting but I knew she knew just how I was feeling too as I was comforting her last year when she lost her baby.
We are finally feeling able to start moving on, although we will always miss our little Ellie. Our plan now is to try to give her a little brother or sister. It is only recently we have been able to think that way.
We are off to Ellie's grave later today, and no doubt more tears will be shed.
Not sure where Im going with this post - sorry it's a bit vague. Im typing my thoughts, and they are very jumbled at the moment.
Sue

Sue (40)
Chris (37)
DD Eleanor Susan (Ellie)
born at 27wks severe PE
24 July 03 - 20 August 03

[tinalowe]

Sue--Sending you HUGE HUGS today. I know it must be hard. I pray that you find a measure of peace and comfort today. I have noticed how much oour precious angels have touched not only our lives but the lives others. In some way I find a measure of peace in that, I know that my Emma will never be forgotten.

Tina 23
DH Dereck 26

Emma Victoria stillborn 12-28-03 severe pre-e
ttc#2

[angelkat]

Sue,

May you find comfort and peace today. My prayers are with you....

Hugs
~T
Moderator Grief and Loss
Mommy to
Drew(14)PE 37 wks
Ky (12)PE 34 wks
~i~ Katlyne(12/9/02-04/02/03)25 wks
Casey - 34wks Born 7/29/04
Katlyne's Tribute Site
http://forevernetwork.com/lifestories/lifestory.cfm?Archive_ID=10971&Directory=/Archives/MountHope&Sort=V

[mada]

Sue,
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family as well today. I know it will be tough for you, I wish you comfort and much love....

Mada Harpster-moderator for pregnant again

Sam 6-29-00 36weeks P.E.
Ben 11-03-01 No P.E.

[heatherbbb]

Sue,
Reading your message brought tears to my eyes. It is amazing how such a short, precious life can touch so many. My thoughts and prayers for peace are with you. I'm coming up on my son's first birthday in two weeks and I wonder what type of day it will be. Emotional I'm sure. He passed away in Feb after a 5 1/2 month stay in the NICU. We're working on a little brother or sister for him as well. It's scarey, but also exciting. I wish you and yours the very best.

Heather

Mother of Seth Russell, delivered 26 weeks due to PE/HELLP 9/3/03-2/13/04
http://members.cox.net/heatherbbb/seth/seth.htm
Due with baby # 2 Feb 1, 2005

[rachelt]

So sorry Sue. I understand the feeling, August 17th was the due date that my child should have been born, but instead he is no longer with me. I do wish you peace and comfort today, and that you find the strength and support that you need through God, and those who love you deeply.

-Rachel T.

Michael Elijah George Graham Stillborn June 12, 2004
My Precious Angel Baby

[for faith]

Oh Sue, sending lots of hugs. That is wonderful about the woman, it is so touching when someone remembers. Glad to here about trying for a brother or sister for Ellie, we are doing that right now too. Sending you lots of hugs today and for the days to come.

Take care,

Jill
mommy to:
Tyler - 4 (36 wks, PIH (just told by peri it was mild PE))
Angel baby - 1/20/03 (11 wks)
Faith Kristine - 1/5/04-1/30/04 (30 weeks due to severe PE, passed due to NEC & Sepsis(preemie complications))

trying for #2 to share our lives with since 9/02

[sweetiesuzy]

Sue,
Huge hugs your way. I am thinking of your precious Ellie.

Suzanna

DS 3/25/95
DD 10/26/01 stillbirth
DS 12/30/02
AND ~ Laura Elise 7/19/04

[julie f]

Sue,

My prayers are with you and your husband...

Much love to you both,

Julie (27)
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26wks - severe pe

Miracle in progress... #2 is due February 2005!!!

Southern California Coordinator

[sjs40]

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. We survived the day itself, and spent time with Ellie at the memorial gardens. It was a lovely sunny afternoon so we sat on the bench close to her for quite some time.

I have attached a link to some photos of my little Ellie, I hope it works....

http://uk.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/esw240703/album?.dir=15e8

Sue

Sue (40)
Chris (37)
DD Eleanor Susan (Ellie)
born at 27wks severe PE
24 July 03 - 20 August 03