Thank you for the advice and that's just what I'm going to do before I go to bed. Look through his baby book where all his ultrasound pictures are, etc. I wish I had internet access through out the day because that would help so much, to be able to talk with all you and visit the site when I needed to. I left an angel ornament at his grave this morning and I went back out after work and sat there for a little while, talking to him. (although I never know what to say)
TB, your situation sounds VERY similar to mine. But I unfortunately had to make that choice and will hold the guilt until the end of time. I can't let that go because it seems like one more thing I failed at. Your words hit so close to home, every single one of them. Thank you.
Thank you all again for all your wonderful advice and caring words. My heart goes out to each and every one of you for helping me.