by j betts (65 Posts), Sat Sep 18, 2004 12:31 am
It is very normal to feel nervous. The first thing to do is be CALM. I know that is easier said than done, but it helps you to see things more clearly. I have some idea of what you are going through. In July, Dh Michael went away for A WEEK!!! This was the longest time ever that we have been away from each other since Mia has been gone. He was away for a weekend 3 years ago. That was the only time since we have been together in 9 years. He told me in June that he was going to Toronto, and each day leading up to that I was very jittery. I think I was more afraid of the complete silence than anything else. I was very concerned about the nights because I just knew that they would be challenging. I am very used to the long days being at home while he is at work. That started the week after Mia passed. So, almost immediately I had to get used to him being gone. At first, I couldn't stand it, but I eventually made it through. I actually suprised myself on how well I handled it while he was on his trip. With my sleepless nights, I kept all the lights on and turned the TV up. As people say, the TV watched me. IT WORKED!! Each day he called me. That helped. Although, the day he came back home, strangely I had this feeling that I didn't want him to come back. It was funny because I was so accustomed to being by myself. I didn't think I would make it, but I did. TRY TO CREATE AS MANY DISTRACTIONS AS YOU CAN FOR YOURSELF TO MAKE THE TIME GO BY FASTER. I hope this helps. Thinking of you this weekend.
Mommy to Mia Alexandra
12/23/02(stillborn @ 36 wks due to complete placental abruption, caused by severe PRE-E and HELLP SYNDROME)
Mia, "MY BUMPKIN"----
You complete me
You are my LIFE, my HEART and SOUL, forever...
my sweet, precious baby girl
I LOVE YOU!!!