We picked up Michelle's ashes just two days ago. I don't have an urn for them yet, so I just have the box from the funeral home. I hugged that box tight all the way home in the car, and cried. It seemed so wrong to be bringing her ashes home in a box instead of bringing a healthy baby home in a car seat. But, like you, I am so happy that she's finally here with me at last. Once I get the urn and have her ashes transferred to it, I will find a nice place in our home where I can put the urn, a teddy bear or other stuffed animal to hug the urn tight, and a miniature bonsai tree that I am going to grow from a kit. Michelle was so tiny and I think the tiny tree will be fitting to her memory.
Yes, you are a mom, and so am I...we all are. I wish you peace and comfort.
Mommy to Michelle Elizabeth, 8/25-9/1/04, 24w1d, 1 lb 3 oz, severe PE/HELLP syndrome
Michelle's memorial page: http://www.geocities.com/jfiorello68