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Chloe's Birthday Approaching.

Postby sweetiesuzy » Wed Oct 06, 2004 07:45 pm

by sweetiesuzy (2404 Posts), Wed Oct 06, 2004 07:45 pm

I am feeling rather sad tonight. Chloe's birthday is approaching and I am experiencing feelings of reliving how everything was the year she died. I have strong assocations to smells, places, seasons etc. It is hard. This will be three years. Somehow I thought I would be a bit stronger this year, but I feel weaker. I wish she was here with us. Safe and warm. I miss her.

Thank you for letting me talk about her here. I treasure you all.

Hugs,
Suzanna

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Chloe Rose ~ 10/26/01 Stillbirth
Samuel Isaac ~ 12/30/02
Laura Elise ~ 7/19/04

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Re : Chloe's Birthday Approaching.

Postby angelkat » Wed Oct 06, 2004 09:18 pm

by angelkat (3423 Posts), Wed Oct 06, 2004 09:18 pm

Suz,

My thoughts and prayers are with you. Sorry you are having a hard time right now... Sending you HUGE HUGS.....

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Re : Chloe's Birthday Approaching.

Postby for faith » Thu Oct 07, 2004 08:57 am

by for faith (1749 Posts), Thu Oct 07, 2004 08:57 am

Suzanna - Sending lots of hugs this month. My thoughts are with you. I love your message in your signature, that is so true. You never know what love can be until you have a child. It is so hard to not have that child with you to love. I know that January will never be the same for me.

Take care, I hope that you feel some peace as this anniversary approaches.



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Faith Kristine - 1/5/04-1/30/04 (30 weeks due to severe PE, passed due to NEC/Sepsis (preemie complications))
OUR LITTLE MIRACLE due 6/5/05

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Re : Chloe's Birthday Approaching.

Postby julie f » Thu Oct 07, 2004 09:06 am

by julie f (7993 Posts), Thu Oct 07, 2004 09:06 am

Suzanna,
Sending prayers of comfort and strength your way. I wish there was something I could say or do...

Julie (27)
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26wks - severe pe

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Re : Chloe's Birthday Approaching.

Postby kdreher » Thu Oct 07, 2004 11:02 am

by kdreher (2482 Posts), Thu Oct 07, 2004 11:02 am

Suzanna,
I lost my son 9 1/2 years ago - he would have been 10 in March 2005 - and I know that this will really knock my socks off. All I can say is that many of us know how you feel and in some way, dread that upcoming anniversary, it is very painful. Some how I have come to live without my baby, but it never goes away and it never will. I know it will be tough day. What I have decided to do for his 10th birthday is have a sort of mother's ring made with his birthstone. I also have a few pieces of jewelry that my mother/dh gave me and when I wear them I know they remind me of Tyler.


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Tyler 3-9-95 to 3-23-95 (26 wks severe pe/HELLP)
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Re : Chloe's Birthday Approaching.

Postby space_coaster » Thu Oct 07, 2004 07:35 pm

by space_coaster (88 Posts), Thu Oct 07, 2004 07:35 pm

Suzanna, I'm sending you thoughts of peace and comfort as you prepare for Chloe's birthday/angel day. I too have very strong associations to things and everything seems to remind me of my baby these days. (((Hugs))) to you and your family.

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Re : Chloe's Birthday Approaching.

Postby sam » Fri Oct 08, 2004 01:02 pm

by sam (442 Posts), Fri Oct 08, 2004 01:02 pm

suzanna

just to let you know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers at this difficult time. There are no words even close enough to help ease even a modicum of your pain, just know that we are all here whenever you feel you need to share your thoughts.

hugs and love to you all

xxx

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Re : Chloe's Birthday Approaching.

Postby josiah1112 » Fri Oct 08, 2004 01:36 pm

by josiah1112 (1368 Posts), Fri Oct 08, 2004 01:36 pm

Goes to show that having 1 or even 2 more babies
will never take the yearning in our hearts for
our lost babies. Thinking of you and also sitting
in anticipation for myself, since my anniversary
is also coming up. I find myself crying easier these
days at the memories and sharing about him unexpectantly.
Take Care,

Gloria mom to Josiah 11/12/03- 12/4/03 @ 26wks pre e
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Re : Chloe's Birthday Approaching.

Postby akemt » Fri Oct 08, 2004 06:59 pm

by akemt (4961 Posts), Fri Oct 08, 2004 06:59 pm

Suz,
I cannot imagine the pain of losing a child. I've said it so many times since being here. I am so impressed by you and the many other wonderful, strong women who've dealt with this pain and still manage to go on. I can only imagine that having recently had little Laura makes it even more poignant.

Sending you all my love,

Catherine (23), Moderator (pregnant again)
DH Britton (28)
Emma Margaret (03/02/03) 37 weeks from PIH & oligo
Lara Julianne (07/31/04) 38 weeks Borderline PIH
George the gallbladder (09/15/04) 6 1/2 weeks PP 15-20 small gallstones
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Re : Chloe's Birthday Approaching.

Postby mada » Sun Oct 10, 2004 02:34 pm

by mada (4081 Posts), Sun Oct 10, 2004 02:34 pm

Hey Suzy,
Big hugs honey!! I cannot omagine how hard this is....praying for peace and comfort for you!!!

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