Chloe's Birthday Approaching.

[sweetiesuzy]

I am feeling rather sad tonight. Chloe's birthday is approaching and I am experiencing feelings of reliving how everything was the year she died. I have strong assocations to smells, places, seasons etc. It is hard. This will be three years. Somehow I thought I would be a bit stronger this year, but I feel weaker. I wish she was here with us. Safe and warm. I miss her.

Thank you for letting me talk about her here. I treasure you all.

Hugs,
Suzanna

Aaryngston ~ 3/25/95
Chloe Rose ~ 10/26/01 Stillbirth
Samuel Isaac ~ 12/30/02
Laura Elise ~ 7/19/04

"Children will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for"

[angelkat]

Suz,

My thoughts and prayers are with you. Sorry you are having a hard time right now... Sending you HUGE HUGS.....

Hugs
~T
Moderator Grief and Loss
Mommy to
Drew(14)PE 37 wks
Ky (12)PE 34 wks
~i~ Katlyne(12/9/02-04/02/03)25 wks
Casey - 34wks Born 7/29/04
Katlyne's Tribute Site
http://forevernetwork.com/lifestories/lifestory.cfm?Archive_ID=10971&Directory=/Archives/MountHope&Sort=V

[for faith]

Suzanna - Sending lots of hugs this month. My thoughts are with you. I love your message in your signature, that is so true. You never know what love can be until you have a child. It is so hard to not have that child with you to love. I know that January will never be the same for me.

Take care, I hope that you feel some peace as this anniversary approaches.



Jill
mommy to:
Tyler - 4 (36 wks, PIH/mild PE))
Angel baby - 1/20/03 (11 wks)
Faith Kristine - 1/5/04-1/30/04 (30 weeks due to severe PE, passed due to NEC/Sepsis (preemie complications))
OUR LITTLE MIRACLE due 6/5/05

trying for #2 to share our lives with since 09/02

[julie f]

Suzanna,
Sending prayers of comfort and strength your way. I wish there was something I could say or do...

Julie (27)
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26wks - severe pe

Miracle in progress... #2 is due February 2005!!!

Southern California Coordinator

[kdreher]

Suzanna,
I lost my son 9 1/2 years ago - he would have been 10 in March 2005 - and I know that this will really knock my socks off. All I can say is that many of us know how you feel and in some way, dread that upcoming anniversary, it is very painful. Some how I have come to live without my baby, but it never goes away and it never will. I know it will be tough day. What I have decided to do for his 10th birthday is have a sort of mother's ring made with his birthstone. I also have a few pieces of jewelry that my mother/dh gave me and when I wear them I know they remind me of Tyler.


Kris (35)
DH, Tom (34)
Tyler 3-9-95 to 3-23-95 (26 wks severe pe/HELLP)
Hoping for a little miracle in 2005! (after TR surgery in 2004)


tkstevens@sbcglobal.net or kstevens@cga.uscg.mil

[space_coaster]

Suzanna, I'm sending you thoughts of peace and comfort as you prepare for Chloe's birthday/angel day. I too have very strong associations to things and everything seems to remind me of my baby these days. (((Hugs))) to you and your family.

Jocelyn (36)
Mommy to Michelle Elizabeth, 8/25-9/1/04, 24w1d, 1 lb 3 oz, severe PE/HELLP syndrome

Michelle's memorial page: http://www.geocities.com/jfiorello68

[sam]

suzanna

just to let you know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers at this difficult time. There are no words even close enough to help ease even a modicum of your pain, just know that we are all here whenever you feel you need to share your thoughts.

hugs and love to you all

xxx

sam
London,UK
severe PE/class 1 HELLP @ 27wks
13th oct 2003
mummy to angel jake
http://www.shattered-dreams.uk.com/jakehayman.htm

[josiah1112]

Goes to show that having 1 or even 2 more babies
will never take the yearning in our hearts for
our lost babies. Thinking of you and also sitting
in anticipation for myself, since my anniversary
is also coming up. I find myself crying easier these
days at the memories and sharing about him unexpectantly.
Take Care,

Gloria mom to Josiah 11/12/03- 12/4/03 @ 26wks pre e
Moderator- Foro Latino
Future Adoptive Mom

[akemt]

Suz,
I cannot imagine the pain of losing a child. I've said it so many times since being here. I am so impressed by you and the many other wonderful, strong women who've dealt with this pain and still manage to go on. I can only imagine that having recently had little Laura makes it even more poignant.

Sending you all my love,

Catherine (23), Moderator (pregnant again)
DH Britton (28)
Emma Margaret (03/02/03) 37 weeks from PIH & oligo
Lara Julianne (07/31/04) 38 weeks Borderline PIH
George the gallbladder (09/15/04) 6 1/2 weeks PP 15-20 small gallstones

[mada]

Hey Suzy,
Big hugs honey!! I cannot omagine how hard this is....praying for peace and comfort for you!!!

Mada Harpster-moderator for pregnant again

Sam 6-29-00 36weeks P.E.
Ben 11-03-01 No P.E.