Benjamin's first birthday in heaven

[mrsboogs]

Hi all,

Today is the awful day when we learned that Ben had died. I am feeling OK this morning. We are going to go the cemetary later to put some flowers on his plaque there (we have his ashes at home). I can't believe how quickly the year has gone.

On a happier note, I had my 19 week scan and everything looks good. It's another boy! I will have another scan at 24 weeks. My doctor is really good and will see me weekly from 28 weeks (the time I lost Ben).

Hope everyone is well.


Lorraine


Lorraine (28)
Michael (32)
Michael Luis 27/03/00
Benjamin Angelo 28/10/03-28/10/03

[forlogan]

Lorraine,

Just wanted to send you a cyber hug....lots and lots of hugs! I am so sad right along with you. Just know that you are not alone tonight and we all feel your grief and pain.

Good to hear all is going well so far with your baby boy...he has a special guardian angel in heaven watching out for him![;)]



Dee (31)
DH Bryan (32)
Mom & Dad to:
Talia - 7 (full term, no complications) 1-31-97
Logan - (Stillborn at 25w due to severe PE) 5-16-04 and 4 little Angels in Heaven

[mom2tori]

Lorraine, wanted to send you comforting thoughts and peaceful feelings. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and am hoping for a happy, healthy boy to come your way! Good luck and God bless!

Alissa mommy to:
Dominic 9/10/97-9/11/97
Victoria 1/8/02

[angelkat]

Lorraine,

Hugging you tighty.. Prayers of comfort and peace are with you....


Hugs
~T
Moderator Grief and Loss
Mommy to
Drew(14)PE 37 wks
Ky (12)PE 34 wks
~i~ Katlyne(12/9/02-04/02/03)25 wks
Casey - 34wks Born 7/29/04
Katlyne's Tribute Site
http://forevernetwork.com/lifestories/lifestory.cfm?Archive_ID=10971&Directory=/Archives/MountHope&Sort=V

[sweetiesuzy]

I am so sorry you have to endure this. It is so hard. Please know I am thinking of you today and remembering precious Benjamin Angelo.

Hugs,
Suzanna

Aaryngston ~ 3/25/95
Chloe Rose ~ 10/26/01 Stillbirth
Samuel Isaac ~ 12/30/02
Laura Elise ~ 7/19/04

"Children will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for"

[heatherbbb]

Lorraine,
Sending you lots of hugs and positive thoughts on this special and horrible anniversary. I'm hoping all goes well with Benjamin's little brother.

Heather (32)
Mother of Seth Russell, delivered 26 weeks due to PE/HELLP 9/3/03-2/13/04
http://members.cox.net/heatherbbb/seth/seth.htm
Due with Joshua Allen -scheduled C-section @ 39 weeks (about Jan 20, 2005), Protein C deficiency & Lupus Anticoagulant (2 Heparin shots/day since 14 weeks)

[for faith]

Lorraine,

Sending you and your family more hugs. Hope today is a peaceful one for you. So happy to hear about Benjamin's little brother, wishing a wonderful rest of your pregnancy.

I also have a son born in 2000 and I am 8 weeks pregnant. I am having a hard time figuring out how and when to talk to my son about this baby. We sort of kept him sheltered from what happened with Faith, but he does know about her and did see her a couple of times. If you wouldn't mind sharing with me, I would love to know how you are handling this.

Take care,

Jill
mommy to:
Tyler - 4 (36 wks, PIH/mild PE))
Angel baby - 1/20/03 (11 wks)
Faith Kristine - 1/5/04-1/30/04 (30 weeks due to severe PE, passed due to NEC/Sepsis (preemie complications))
OUR LITTLE MIRACLE due 6/5/05

trying for #2 to share our lives with since 09/02

[kdreher]

Sending many hugs and good thoughts your way.

Kris (35)
DH, Tom (34)
My Angel Tyler 3-9-95 to 3-23-95 (26 wks severe pe/HELLP)
Hoping for a little miracle in 2005!

tkstevens@sbcglobal.net

[mrsboogs]

Thank you so much everyone for all your prayers and comfort. The actual day was not as bad as I thought it would be. We went to the cemetary and put flowers and a little Thomas the Tank Engine toy near his plaque and my mum lit a candle for him. I said a beautiful poem which I will share with you in another post as it is quite long. I was bawling while I was saying the poem but I'm glad I made myself say it.

Jill, with regards to Michael, he has always been very involved with Benjamin and he kows all about him. He even saw him at the funeral home and we have a picture of him on display (the same one that is on his website). We also have a big charcoal drawing that my MIL got an artist friend of hers to do, which is framed and hangs up in our living room. For me I feel it is very important that he knows he has another little brother besides the one in mummy's tummy. He came to the cemetary yesterday and he scattered petals too.

We told him we were pregnant again after I had my 12 week scan and everything was OK. I figured that even if we lost the baby at that stage I would be so upset that he would know something was wrong anyway. Kids pick up on these things so easily. I was also pregnant before this but lost the baby at 5 weeks. We didn't tell him about that one and I am glad for that as it would have confused him. I think you will know in your heart when is the right time to tell your little one. Maybe it will just slip out and it will feel "right", or maybe you prefer to wait a little longer. I was apprehensive about telling him but at 12 weeks a lot of people knew too and I didn't want him to find out from someone else!

Hope this helps and wishing you a wonderful, event free pregnancy!

Lorraine
xoxox


Lorraine (28)
Michael (32)
Michael Luis 27/03/00
Benjamin Angelo 28/10/03-28/10/03

[space_coaster]

((((Hugs)))) to you, Lorraine. I'm glad you were able to find some peace on Benjamin's one year angel day. Congratulations on your current pregnancy with another sweet little boy [:)]

Jocelyn (36)
Mommy to Michelle Elizabeth, 8/25-9/1/04, 24w1d, 1 lb 3 oz, severe PE/HELLP syndrome

Michelle's memorial page: http://www.geocities.com/jfiorello68