Houstygirl, many hugs to you. I often feel the same way. Almost every day I tell my husband how I feel that something is wrong and I just don't know it yet, that I'll wait too long to get to the doctor and it will be too late... These feelings have increased tremendously as I approach the time when all started to go downhill last pregnancy... Intellectually, I know that this pregnancy is different, that things are going very well, that I don't have one single red flag for preeclampsia right now... Emotionally, it's a while different story.
I think Heather had some wonderful and very compassionate advice. It is such a scary time and I don't think any of us will feel "safe" until our baby is in our arms. And even then, we'll worry about the future like Alissa said. People say things like, "It'll be fine, don't worry," to make themselves feel better. In their mind, it really will be fine but, they don't know what it's like to bury their baby.
Hang in there and come here and vent/worry anytime, you're not alone.
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26wks - severe pe
Miracle in progress... #2 is due February 2005!!!
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