I Lost my Baby...

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I Lost my Baby...

Postby rachel » Tue Nov 09, 2004 01:33 pm

I was 18 weeks pregnant, and everything was going great. I went in for a routine appt, and the Doctor wasn't able to find a heartbeat. She immediately sent me in for an ultrasound, and we found out that our baby was no longer living. I was/am devastated. The hurt that I feel is unbelievable.... we wanted this baby so badly. I was all prepared to face pre-eclampsia again, I was totally unprepared for this. We have no idea what happened, testing is being done, but I'm not expecting to get any answers. I carried the baby for 2 more weeks, trying to decide what we should do. Last week I was induced, and after 16 hours of labor, I delivered our baby weighing 5 ounces, and 8 inches long. We think it was a girl, but we should find out for certain. The most painful thing in the world for me, was holding that baby, weeping, wishing that somehow this was all a bad dream.... It is hard for me to accept that I'm not pregnant anymore. Every part of my being aches for that baby. There is such a feeling of loss, and incompleteness. I have a strong faith in God, and right now, that's the only thing that's keeping me going. I know that ultimately, I can trust Him, but it sure is hard.
I have found such comfort reading the posts in this forum. I read and cry, and know that I'm not alone in my hurt. Thank you for the encouragement that you have already been to me. I know I will make it through this. It has made us so much more grateful for our daughter, and the incredible joy that she brings to our lives!

Rachel
Mommy to Kailee - born at 28 weeks
1lb. 13 oz.
Emilee Renee - stillborn 11/3/04
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Re : I Lost my Baby...

Postby for faith » Tue Nov 09, 2004 01:46 pm

Oh I am so, so sorry. My heart is breaking for you. I hope that you get some answers, it can help some. I am wishing you peace as you go through this hard journey. Please let us know if there is anything we can do, unfortunately many of us have been through your loss. Thinking of you and praying for you.

Jill
mommy to:
Tyler - 4 (36 wks, PIH/mild PE))
Angel baby - 1/20/03 (11 wks)
Faith Kristine - 1/5/04-1/30/04 (30 weeks due to severe PE, passed due to NEC/Sepsis (preemie complications))
OUR LITTLE MIRACLE due 6/5/05

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Re : I Lost my Baby...

Postby mom2tori » Tue Nov 09, 2004 02:18 pm

Rachel-I am SO sorry! I hope that you find your way through this heartache and emptiness to some comfort and peace. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, God bless!

Alissa mommy to:
Dominic 9/10/97-9/11/97
Victoria 1/8/02
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Re : I Lost my Baby...

Postby frasiah » Tue Nov 09, 2004 02:19 pm

Oh Rachel... no words can express how sorry I feel for you right now. I am sorry about your baby and will be thinking of you at this very hard time.

Frasiah
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m/c 06/04
# 2 due 05/26/2005
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Re : I Lost my Baby...

Postby josiah1112 » Tue Nov 09, 2004 02:19 pm

I'm so sorry about what you've been through! [V] Come here and
vent any time. We are here for you.

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Re : I Lost my Baby...

Postby angelkat » Tue Nov 09, 2004 03:01 pm

Rachel,

I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope you will find comfort ans peace from our threads in this section. Please know that we are here for you.

Prayers for comfort,peace and strength are with you

Hugs
~T
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Re : I Lost my Baby...

Postby tracey » Tue Nov 09, 2004 03:11 pm

Rachel,
I am so very sorry to you and your family for the loss of your precious little one.
I too, am wishing you peace as you go through this very difficult journey.
We are here for you.

Thinking of you with prayers and hugs.



Tracey
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angel Ila Elizabeth (02.06.04), 25w2d ~ severe pe/Class 1 HELLP
pea-in-the-pod, EDD 03.04.05 (37 weeks)
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Re : I Lost my Baby...

Postby j betts » Tue Nov 09, 2004 03:25 pm

Rachel,

I am so sorry you lost your baby girl and to have to welcome you to this forum. I hope you will find comfort knowing that there are other "angel" moms here at PF that are very supportive.






Jacinta
Mommy to Mia Alexandra
12/23/02(stillborn @ 36 wks due to complete placental abruption, caused by severe PRE-E and HELLP SYNDROME)


Mia, "MY BUMPKIN"----
You complete me
You are my LIFE, my HEART and SOUL, forever...
my sweet, precious baby girl
I LOVE YOU!!!
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Re : I Lost my Baby...

Postby heather h » Tue Nov 09, 2004 04:25 pm

Rachel,
I am so sorry for your loss. [V] My thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope you find some comfort in this forum - I know I have and still do. It really helps to be able to communicate with other people that can relate to what you are going through.

With deepest sympathy,

Heather (25)

28weeks - Shane Andrew 4/25/04
"Our little angel who will always be loved and never be forgotten"
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Re : I Lost my Baby...

Postby sweetiesuzy » Tue Nov 09, 2004 05:42 pm

Rachel,
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious baby Emilee Renee. There are no words I can say to ease your pain, but somehow please know I am praying for you and thinking of you. Please be kind to yourself and take time to cry and grieve. There are so many suppotive women here that can help you through some of the pain.

Again I am so sorry and I send you HUGE HUGS,
Suzanna

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