Anika, I am so sorry that you are having a rough time right now. Certain days will always be harder than others like anniversaries and birthdays but then some days just out of the blue are bad ones. During my first year without my son my mother was the biggest help to me. On the first Mothers Day without my son she bought me flowers from him, Christmas she always gets me a little something from my boy, and she gave me a letter from him that says basically although we are apart he misses me as much as I miss him and loves me as much as I love him, everytime I cry he curls just a little closer to me, even though death seperates our bodies our hearts and the love we share will keep us together until the end of time. Sometimes just thinking that helps me through a rough day. I am praying that you find something, anything that helps you get through all those rough days. My thoughts and prayers are with you through the holidays ahead and the begining of 2005 as you go through an enormous range of emotions. God bless!!!
Alissa mommy to: