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Postby amillhouse » Wed Nov 17, 2004 12:44 am

by amillhouse (587 Posts), Wed Nov 17, 2004 12:44 am

I woke up yesterday with that wave of anguish that I thought had started to fade. I couldn't figure out where it was coming from; then I realised that it is nine months since Isaiah died.

I still can't believe it. I miss him so much. I feel so alone in this journey.[V] I thank God for you ladies.

Anika

Mommy to Isaiah Dumisani Millhouse
20 January - 17 February 2004
Born at 28 weeks due to severe pre-eclampsia
Died at 28 days old of pneumonia
610 grams at birth
950 grams at death
My Angel Boy
"My firstborn, I will never forget you, always love you, and never replace you"
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Re : 9 months

Postby mom2tori » Wed Nov 17, 2004 01:08 pm

by mom2tori (3842 Posts), Wed Nov 17, 2004 01:08 pm

Anika, I am so sorry that you are having a rough time right now. Certain days will always be harder than others like anniversaries and birthdays but then some days just out of the blue are bad ones. During my first year without my son my mother was the biggest help to me. On the first Mothers Day without my son she bought me flowers from him, Christmas she always gets me a little something from my boy, and she gave me a letter from him that says basically although we are apart he misses me as much as I miss him and loves me as much as I love him, everytime I cry he curls just a little closer to me, even though death seperates our bodies our hearts and the love we share will keep us together until the end of time. Sometimes just thinking that helps me through a rough day. I am praying that you find something, anything that helps you get through all those rough days. My thoughts and prayers are with you through the holidays ahead and the begining of 2005 as you go through an enormous range of emotions. God bless!!!

Alissa mommy to:
Dominic 9/10/97-9/11/97
Victoria 1/8/02
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Re : 9 months

Postby for faith » Wed Nov 17, 2004 01:57 pm

by for faith (1749 Posts), Wed Nov 17, 2004 01:57 pm

Anika ~ I am so sorry, I have those days too. I am so dreading the holidays coming and then January, the one year anniversary. Many times I just find myself crying for my loss and I feel so alone in my pain (I choose not to share it). I am so happy for this group too. Take care, thinking of you.

Jill
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Tyler - 4 (36 wks, PIH/mild PE))
Angel baby - 1/20/03 (11 wks)
Faith Kristine - 1/5/04-1/30/04 (30 weeks due to severe PE, passed due to NEC/Sepsis (preemie complications))
OUR LITTLE MIRACLE due 6/5/05

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Re : 9 months

Postby sam » Thu Nov 18, 2004 10:19 am

by sam (442 Posts), Thu Nov 18, 2004 10:19 am

Anika

Just letting you know that i am thinking of you and precious Isiah.

When these dark days descend upon us they are just awful. Peace and comfort to you.



sam
London,UK
severe atypical PE/class 1 HELLP @ 27wks
13th oct 2003
mummy to angel jake
http://www.shattered-dreams.uk.com/jakehayman.htm
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Re : 9 months

Postby angelkat » Thu Nov 18, 2004 10:21 am

by angelkat (3423 Posts), Thu Nov 18, 2004 10:21 am

Peace and comfort to you....

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Re : 9 months

Postby heatherbbb » Thu Nov 18, 2004 10:25 am

by heatherbbb (603 Posts), Thu Nov 18, 2004 10:25 am

Anika,
I have those times too when everything seems to come back. I'm wishing you peace and comfort.

Heather (32)
Mother of Seth Russell, delivered 26 weeks due to PE/HELLP 9/3/03-2/13/04
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Due with Joshua Allen -scheduled C-section @ 39 weeks (about Jan 20, 2005), Protein C deficiency & Lupus Anticoagulant (2 Heparin shots/day since 14 weeks)
Gestational Diabetes Discoverd at 28 weeks
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Re : 9 months

Postby space_coaster » Thu Nov 18, 2004 07:47 pm

by space_coaster (88 Posts), Thu Nov 18, 2004 07:47 pm

((((Anika)))) I hope the rest of the day was gentle to you.

Jocelyn (36)
Mommy to Michelle Elizabeth, 8/25-9/1/04, 24w1d, 1 lb 3 oz, severe PE/HELLP syndrome

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Re : 9 months

Postby julie f » Fri Nov 19, 2004 09:46 am

by julie f (7993 Posts), Fri Nov 19, 2004 09:46 am

Anika,
Sending prayers your way. Sometimes it can come out of no where and overwhelm us... no rhyme or reason.

Much love to you,

Julie (27)
Zachary James, 7/22/03-7/27/03, born at 26wks - severe pe

Miracle in progress... #2 is due February 2005!!!

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