by catherine (2832 Posts), Mon Apr 19, 2004 02:24 pm
Hugs honey, I know that you feel like you are sitting on a razorblade.
I think that what is happening is that you are sort of stuck in no-man's-land. If you were home or out of reach, if you were to show up out of the blue with even a mild change, because they wouldn't know what had been going on, even the day before, they might be more agressive about delivering little Maija. However, you are right in their viewing zone and they have loads of data. So they will feel much safer about how things are with you, and therefore have more room to manoever. I know that they have reeled off a list of conditions that would force them to deliver you before 37 weeks. That is because, they know that they cannot guarantee a smooth outcome for her before then with no NICU time etc. At the same time, you have a very cautious OB and a peri who would probably deliver you if they thought that "you weren't looking good". By that I mean that the list that they have given you is very objective, but years of training have hopefully put them in the position of being able to make subjective decisions too. I know that you don't want the mag or to be sick, and that having Maija healthy and here is paramount. I don't think that you are being selfish, but you must be aware that your perspective is different from that of your doctors' and theirs' isn't likely to change. While they can see you there and on the monitor etc. in the hospital, she is as safe as anyone can make her and in the best possible place to grow. I really don't think that they would let you get severely ill before they would deliver your baby but I do think that they want you to get closer to the edge in order to give her as much time in utero as possible.
Once again, if all that has gone before for you wasn't enough, this proves how sucky preeclampsia is [xx(]. I thinkt that you've done really well so far, it's only a little bit more...... Congratulations on having an excellent DH... I doubt that mine would ever have dared to find his way to this site.
Mom to Finn, Lucy (preeclampsia and HELLP) and Chloe.
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