So today I officially make 24 weeks pregnant. I used to write more on these boards before, after I lost my little Joseph at 22 weeks. When I got pregnant this time, I wrote a little but the closer the 22 week mark got, the more I didn't want to talk. Not to mention I'm dealing with my father in law being diagnosed with a very aggressive cancert back in September, only 4 months after losing Joseph, and it comes back with avengence in March of this year. My specialist and OB would keep telling me, try not to fight with anyone, stay calm, relax. But yeah, I work 50 to 60 hours a week, I'm pregnant, worried, my father in law has just been transferred to ***** hospital with a not very good out look, my husband is devastated, and I'm trying to keep calm during all of this.
Luckily I am a positive kind of person and take things one day at a time. And surprisingly, since the day I hit 22 weeks of pregnancy, my bp has been lower than its been the whole pregnancy. It never got to high, it got to 138/86 once. But now its reading 115/65 most of the time, and I have not been on any bp meds at all this pregnancy. I believe my little angel is some where out there whispering in God's ear. Or my grandmother whom always had the amazing ability to say calm, and I seem to have inherited it.
At 20 weeks my son was measureing 15 oz, even doctor said he is on big side, my fluid levels are very good, bladder and kidneys look perfect and so does heart. And she got plenty of clear face shots showing no cleft lip. Also baby regularly opens and closes his hands. Can't explain how relieved I was to hear all of this. I can feel him move everyday. My husband and I finally feel like its okay to show excitement. Once my husband felt baby move, he has become a lot warmer. He in no way was distant, but he was terrified of what was going to happen. He was too afraid to even look at baby stuff. Finally we did a registry and are actually going to be working on the nursery soon. Finally. I think we can use the distraction to help us with coping with his father's cancer as well. My poor husband is trying not to be negative, but it's so hard when you see your father in so much pain. I'm just praying that everything with his father and with our son is okay in the end.