I am so sorry you lost your precious baby.It is so very hard to be pregnant again after a loss. And no matter how much time passes, a pregnancy brings back a lot of memories.
What helped me was that I tried to have a sense of control. Like you, I had a great medical team. I also chose to be seen by a therapist to help me through my pregnancy. I focused on myself and made sure that my needs (emotionally and physically) were met as much as possible. I stopped compromising
And sometimes when the panic set in, I just took one step after the next, one day at a time. Sending you hugs.
MC 3/2009 and 3/2011Henry
(1/1/2010-1/7/2010) - forever loved and missed; severe PE with Hellp; partial placental abruption, classical c-section at 25.6 weeksMatilda
(Nov. 2012, born at 35.4 weeks) - severe PE
Our pain has been put into words, placed into empty cradles, to remember that all our babies lived, that they mattered and always will. - Field of Cradles http://www.fieldofcradles.org/