I had and now realize a very prophetic dream/nightmare about a week before I lost Soleil. Did anyone else? I have to write about it, it has been haunting me ever since. In the past I have looked up meanings on dreammoods.com and tried to study what symbols mean. Sometimes Im stooped, but this one makes all too much sense but at the same time a wake up call to the nightmare experience I was about to endure.
The dream started out with me at the airport( arrivals=birth, departures=death). I was waiting on the tarmac for the plane, and one group of people were getting on this big jet. Then they said there was no room for me on that one, I had to take the small bus, I was really nervous and wanted to get on with everyone else on the big jet, but it took off and I was forced to get on the flying bus that had maternity words all over it, like "labor" "delivery", "Maternity", it was like a hospital bus or something( to dream of a deserted airport means your goals will be on hold and bus=temporary setbacks in your goals, getting on the bus=following the crowd). We are flying along and then we hit the Appalachian trail area and we have to make an emergency landing or we crashed, can't remember(mountains=major challenges, bus crash=means you need to venture on your own, be more independent). But I was frantic. I remember we landed in Shenandoah Valley. I was trying to fly home to Cleveland to see my family, I was half way there. I was all of sudden with my friend Andy who is an avid back packer in the middle of the Applachian mountains. He tells me we will have to walk the rest of the way on the Appalachian trail. I tell him there is no way, we have to get a ride.
We walk the trails for a little, then I find this hut that was like a little corner store, the guy tells us that if we have time to wait around, we can catch the guy with magic quarters to give us a ride(quarters=incompleteness, you are not feeling whole). The guy comes and we catch the magic quarters to get a car. Andy drives and Im in the passenger side(another sign that Im not in control of my life right now, Im relying on the driver and following the goals of others, not my own). Then we start driving through mounds of snow(snow=feelings of frigidity, unexpressed emotions, feeling alone,driving in it, I need to be extra cautious of how I approach my goals). Then I wake up/dream stops.
I have had dreams of snow/buses, letting others drive the car for some time now. I don't understand, I know all my friends have kids, I want that too, I don't really feel like wanting a child in my life is just me following the crowd. I don't know besides that, it is just an eerily creepy dream for me, and every morning I wake I think about it. Has anyone else had a similar experience before they lost a child or almost did from pre-e?????