Thank you all for your replies. I feel so lost and alone sometimes. This is the hardest thing I've ever been through in my life. My husband tries to be supportive but he just doesn't get it. I feel so helpless when I'm at the hospital. I can hold him, I pump breast milk for him though I am only producing about 10-20% of what he needs, he has to supplement with formula, but I still feel so helpless, like no matter what this is all out of my hands. I cry everyday, I break down at the simplist things. I know (hope) one day this will all be a memory and I will have my baby at home and we will be a family, I just don't know how I'm going to get through each day right now.
I was delivered because my BP was high, it's better but still high. 140/90s, they are keeping me on procardia. I was also having severe headaches, they are also better but still there. My doc says as long as things are improving she is happy with the progress. I'm also cramping like *, I stopped bleeding then started again a few days ago and it's heavy and painful.
Thank you again for your support and kind words. It's nice to know there are others out there going through what I am. I just can't stop crying sometimes, you know???????????????????