Deep Thinking

[preemomof2]

I know I'm blessed that my baby was born and is doing good, but is it wrong to have negative thoughts. Not that I don't want my daughter to do good which she is, but she hasnt had anything to be wrong with her yet and I'm scared that she will. I have thoughts some times that something is going to go wrong and I will take it hard. I dont know how to think. I feel if I think positive then if something bad happens I wouldnt know how to take it. But if I prepare for the worst then I'll respond a little different. I'm jus so confused as how to take in everything.

[sam10]

It is such a stressful situation to have a baby in the NICU. And it is totally normal that you have all kinds of thoughts and feelings. Does your NICU provide some help through social workers or therapists? In my case every family was assigned a therapist and they would check in with me and I could call them anytime. This I found extremely helpful.

I am glad to hear your baby is doing good! I'll keep thinking of both of you!

[preemomof2]

I'm about 2 hours away from my daughter. I'll be over with her in about a week, staying at a Ronald McDonald House. Hopefully then I'll be able to get more involved. Do you know anything about Bradying? K'Lynn experienced that today after being switched from CPAP to the High Flow Nasal Cannula. I tried to research it but I haven't really seen anything that will give me a lot of information or anyone who has spoke about it.

[sam10]

I think what you are referring to is that the hear-beat went down as they switched her. I do not really know much about that, but perhaps somebody else around here will have some more information about that.

Good to hear you've found a way to be closer to K'Lynn.

[preemomof2]

Okay thanks. I asked her nurse what it meant and she said that her heart beat got too low and that some times preemies have a hard time remember that they are suppose to keep breathing but that she'll learn.
Thanks. It makes it a lot easier being a couple of minutes away than being 2 hours away.

[kara]

The nurse explained it well. It's very common in preemies. As she gets older her brain will be more aware and she'll "remember" to breathe. She's also getting used to a new form of air flow. Nasal cannula is a big step! Congrats for that. The nicu is a stressful place for parents and everything you are feeling is totally normal. Ask if the nicu has a therapist you could talk with. Is hard when no one else really undertands (except us of course). Hang in there!

[preemomof2]

Thank you. K'Lynn has been doing fine since that one episode. They are even thinking about decreasing it from 4 liters to 3 liters. She's a very hard fighter something like myself.
Talk to people that have actually experienced what i'm experiencing now is very helpful.

[jenmatt1]

know that what you are feeling is normal- even those of us that got to bring our babies home worried about something happening. I swear it took me about a year before I could even put her down. Hang in there and you and your daughter are in my prayers.

[preemomof2]

Thank you soo much Jennifer.