by youtan (1592 Posts), Thu Sep 30, 2004 12:32 am
Yes, my second was just as traumatic as the 1st even tho' he came at 32 wks instead of 27 wks. Breastfeeding was so frustrating. My 27 weeker, of course, did not take to breast. We had to practically force feed him a bottle, holding his little jaw up, because he was so weak. I also pumped for 4 months and finally gave it up because of exhaustion. When my 32 weeker came, I was so excited that maybe I'd get to nurse my baby and bond! Well, as with many expectations, this one too was not realized. The doctors were great, but they just had to give him a bottle and measure the liquids in and out. They were much more helpful in letting me try to nurse. But, it still didn't work out. I was too dry and seeing that big pump again just made me freak out, I thought, another 4 months - I can't.... I cried almost everytime I tried to pump and I wouldn't be, uh, fruitful. And then the pain from weaning.... Formula is just gross, in comparison to breastmilk. But, after 3 weeks, my 2nd baby was on formula. I have to ignore all the public announcements that push so hard for people to nurse their babies. It makes me angry, because I couldn't and so much wanted to.
But, formula has raised millions of healthy babies. It's one small price to pay for a healthy preemie! And kangaroo care, even with larger babies, really helps to feed the maternal urge to bond with your child. It's so nice to just sit together quiet for a couple of minutes, several times a day.
Nathanial 5 yrs HELLP 27 wks 1 lb 10 oz
Jonathan 2 yrs PIH 32 wks 4 lb 8 oz