Josh is almost 3 months old, and today is my first day back at work. It actually went okay this morning. When I returned to work after Miles, I cried the entire way from the daycare to work. No tears today... ok, maybe a couple. But I went back to work when Miles was only 7 weeks old, I think the extra time at home this time helped, plus I have dropped Josh off at daycare a few times for a few hours to get used to the routine at the daycare - and give me a little "me" time! Miles had a rough morning - seeing me dress for work, us leaving early... I kept him in daycare for the last 3 months, but not every day, and only for a few hours, so he'd wake up when he was ready and we'd eat and play and then go in. Miles hid under the covers when I tried waking him up today.
I just went and pumped... and there were pictures of all the babies from moms who use the nurse's room to pump... and as I was leaving, I saw Miles picture was still up :) That brought a tear to my eye. I need to add a picture of Josh on the wall.
BFing isn't going so good. I produced (notice past tense) so much and it came out so fast that Josh would choke and gag. He got to the point that he fought nursing (although I know he knew how to latch) and he'd scream... So I resorted to pumping most of the time... but I got really tired of doing that. I didn't produce enough with Miles, but he was a natural nurser, and he always wanted to be BF. Not with Josh. So I pumped less and less and he nursed less and less... but the funny thing is over the last week he started nuzzling my breast, like he wanted it. So were back to BFing a couple times a day, even if he doesn't get much. And he probably likes it better now that its not squirting out so much so fast and choking him. And I like the closeness of it. So back to pumping during the day to try to keep my supply or restart it. But as funny as this sounds - its easier at work... just go to the nurses station and get some alone time to pump, not like at home where I was trying to get the kids settled before pumping, etc, etc, you know.
Anyway... thanks for listening! Back to paying attention to work.