hi again and thank you for your kind and caring responses. ugh, it's still been so SO tough with my poor helena's reflux, she is only calm in my arms anf we may now have to go for a gastric fibroscopy to see why meds aren't helping. so i have just not managed to post here as i want to. this site meant so much to me in pregnancy ' i miss you all and also want to give back! I know it will get easier further down the road...
I wanted to share that I had my Essure 2 days ago. I felt sad, but mostly lucky, so lucky to have my girls, and relieved there is no more pe in my future. i still have high bp and protein, almost 6 months pp. if things were different i'd have loved a big family. but i am grateful for my blessings.
I can highly recommend essure - it was quick and almost painless. I was away from my baby for less than 2 hours.
hugs to you all!
I feel bad for not having been here more often since Helena's birth in August. We've had some tougher months than expected, lots and lots of crying, low weight gain, difficult nights ... but she was finally diagnosed with reflux 10 days ago and thanks to meds I think we're beginning to see the end of the tunnel. Aurelia, my preemie, was on reflux meds from the NICU onwards and so while we struggled with her too, I just didn't know what a term baby with reflux would be like - I feel silly and sorry for having missed the signs for three months! I think with Helena being term I didn't expect anything "should" be wrong...
Despite all this she is such a lovely, smiley baby and we just adore her!
I also wanted to post here as I'm sure you will understand my sadness today better than anyone else. I saw the OB who delivered Helena for my post-natal check today and signed the papers for the Essure procedure. While not pushing me, the doc said at least four times that she thinks I've made the best decision. I've had severe PE twice and am now a chronic. I've had two c-sections, had a scary moment during the second when my bp went from sky-high to very low and recovery from the section plus post-natal PE was terrible. And - more than anything else - I'm so incredibly lucky to have two healthy little girls despite all. Why then am I so terribly sad today...? The Essure procedure will be done by the same OB who delivered Helena in the same op theatre and though I know know know it's the right decision, I just don't know how I'll get through that day.
Thanks for listening.